My lifesaver came and swooped me at 1am last night.. well technically today. I was just having a breakdown and I couldn't be where I was. Anyway, I slept right when we got to his house and woke up bright and early.. well not really. He cooked some Mac and Cheese for brunch and Joel came over.. so the three of us watched TV and stuff. They dropped me off in SC.. I went to class.. boring snoring. I hate PMS. Oh yeah, I also took out my nose ring.. now let's hope it closes normally.

So i'm back in Santa Cruz again. For some reason, everytime I'm here, I'm 10 times more hungry. I guess it's bc I don't have anything else to do besides hw, and I don't like doing that. It sucks bc I went to Albertson's yesterday with Jonathan.. and we bought dorm food.. one thing I bought was a half gallon of milk.. well I just got myself some cereal, and the expiration date for the milk is Jan 30! I have exactly 4 days to finish that half gallon. Wish me luck!

Villiard116 (6:26:07 PM): monthly anniversaries..gettin played out..ya know haha <--I also thought that that was interestinsg, bc it's kinda true.. but it's one of the perks.. I still do it from time to time. But I think the only time Jonathan and I ever really celebrated a month anniversary was the VERY first month we were together back in 1998. I don't remember what we did.. probably nothing bc we both didn't drive yet, but I think we celebrated by talking on the phone all day. haha. I remember our one year anniversary, we got into a little argument.. who knows about what? We didn't see each other bc we STILL didn't drive.. haha. But we were fine after 2 minutes and celebrated it by talking on the phone again? Our two year anniversary, we were at the "lock-in" at MHT, so we slept together.. literally.. hmm.. the 3rd and 4th year we didn't talk to each other, but our five year anniversary, we spent the day in Monterey building sand castles, writing our names in the sand, and having lunch/dinner by the sea. Yeah.. it's a lot better now that we're much older. But anyway, speaking of monthly anniversaries, we just had one on friday, I think I sorta blogged about it. Kinda weird that it was 5 years, 7 months, and 3 days ago Jonathan asked me to be his girlfriend (the first time.. haha). Time flies when you're having fun.

Wow.. I was supposed to blog about that ideal relationship stuff.. oh well. Anyway, I had a great and relaxing weekend. Let's recap.

Friday
-5 year and 7 month anniversary
-Jonathan and I got into a little fight that morning. We always get into arguments concerning other people! But yeah, we resolved everything when he came to SC. He brought me the single, "I Care 'Bout You" by Milestone, so I couldn't be mad at him anymore. That was the first song we danced to 6 years and 3 months ago.. my oh my.
-back in San Jose, we had to wait around for a while bc Ellison was supposed to pick up Sher at my house RIGHT when we got there, but no.
-Jonathan and I went to my uncle Charlie's house.. there was barely any food left for us bc we were supposed to be there an hour before we arrived.. but we ate, and we were full.
-stupid Hampton Inn called Jonathan and forced him to work for a couple hours, so while he was at work, I took a nap
-Jonathan came back and we played for my cousins for a bit.
-We were tired, so we went home. Jonathan was supposed to leave after I fell asleep, but he ended up sleeping too.. haha dork!

Saturday
-went to Oakridge to buy Daysha's bday present.. and then I went shopping at AE. Jonathan got mad bc I keep shopping.. it's alright though!
-went to Bamboola where Daysha's party was at.. there were SOOO many little kids running around.. and when we went into the play area, I felt like fainting bc it had that "Chuck E. Cheese" smell when you go in the pool of plastic balls.
-we ate pizza, watched the clown make balloon animals and objects, then left bc Jonathan had work.
-I went home, then went to VF with my sister.. where I did some more shopping at Hollister.
-hmm.. I think I did nothing until Jonathan came over then we went to Daysha's house bc his relatives were still there.
-played some poker, hung out, left, went to bed.

Sunday
-went with Jonathan to his house to fold laundry, but I didn't fold.. ate cookies.. watched TV
-went to Albertson's bc I needed dorm food
-Jonathan left for work, and I took a nap. I woke up to the sound of "The Osbournes" so I watched the marathon.. ate some spaghetti.
-dropped some spaghetti off for Jonathan bc he was hungry.
-Jenna, my manager, called me and told me I was scheduled to work at 6pm! It was 6:23 when she called! dammit.
-I dropped my sis off at home, changed out of my sweats, then rushed to work.
-blah.. I was about an hour late, but it didn't really matter bc the other workers didn't really start working yet.
-I don't like that manager.. it was my first time working with her, and I don't like her at all. I was the only girl working tonight too, not including the manager.. but I guess it was alright.
-Jonathan's here now! bye bye!

Who wants to know what I learned in Human Sexuality today?

Psychological Influences on Love and Attraction
First of all, there's this thing called LIMERENCE, which is the state people describe as being "in love". It is also called infatuation or a "neurotransmitter surge". There are 10 different characteristics while in the limerence stage.
1) Intrusive thinking about "X" (the person you are "in limerence" with) as a possible partner. You can't get this person out of your head!
2) Strong longing for reciprocation of feelings from "X". You think, "If only 'X' wanted me..."
3) Your mood depends on how "X" reciprocates feelings. For example, if "X" just gave you flowers, you're in a good mood!
4) You can only feel this way towards ONE person at a time if it's "true" limerence. If you are able to go out with multiple people at a time, chances are, you aren't in true limerence with them.
5) You seek relief through fantasy, meaning, you spend a lot of time thinking/fantisizing about "X".
6) When you're first starting to get to know "X", you are often speechless, shy, embarassed because you're still not comfortable with that person that there's still that possibility of being rejected.
7) You over-emphasize all the favorable acts "X" does for you, and you tend to ignore or devise an explanation for all the unfavorable acts.
8) You feel an actual aching heart when "X" hurts you--which is related to the muscles near your heart and breathing.
9) You just feel "lighter" all the time, you are on a natural high.
10) You have intense feelings for "X".
--We also learned the course of limerence.
1) Limerence begins with admiration. You tell yourself, "he/she's so great because..."
2) When you start thinking about the person, you are happy!
3) When the person starts showing feelings, you become happier and happier.
4) You become more involved if there are external obstacles that stop you from being together, when you doubt your feelings, and when you still have that fear of rejection. So you know when a guy or girl plays hard to get, you just want then more!
5) HOPE + UNCERTAINTY = LIMERENCE. When you're always uncertain about the relationship, the longer limerence will last. However, HOPE + CERTAINTY = THE POSSIBILITY OF A REAL RELATIONSHIP.
6) Lastly, if limerence is reciprocated and the feelings are known, then the level of limerence will stay the same until the chemicals in your brain drop. This means, limerence can only reach a certain point, and once it reaches that point, it doesn't grow anymore, you either stay at the "top" of limerence or things start to decline. It's pretty sad if you ask me.
--So, who thinks they're in this stage? If you are, it's not LOVE, it's LIMERENCE! Some other interesting things my teacher talked about was that LIMERENCE ALWAYS DECLINES, unless you maintain uncertainty which will keep the "limerence" going, but will also increase mistrust. So it's a lose-lose situation. Limerence is ALL about feeling good and has NOTHING to do with LOVE. Often, people mistake being in love while in this state. Lasting relationships depend on how STRONG the limerence period was. Every FOUR years, relationships go through different cycles because endorphins in your brain decrease. Distance and Space keeps both partners changing, which is a GOOD thing.. both partners need to be able to grow still. Another interesting thing my teacher said was that there was a correlation between waiting to have sex and long lasting relationships. So, the longer you wait to have sex, your relationship will last longer.. and sex includes oral sex, anal sex, hot monkey sex, however you like to do it, even though you don't think that's sex. Just so long as your partner makes you orgasm.. so let's just say, the longer you wait to orgasm from your partner, the longer your relationship will last! I mean, and who wants to give up their heart to someone they don't know very well? It's really hard to get to know someone during the limerence stage because you are still "blinded" by everything and you are still "high". Once you are beyong the limerence stage, you feel relief and relaxation. But yeah, if you don't believe what I'm typing, look up "DOROTHY TENNOV" on google or something, and you can do your own research.

Dam, I already typed hella and that was only PART ONE of the lecture.. PART TWO talked about the IDEAL LONG LASTING RELATIONSHIP. I'll write about that tomorrow because all of this is a lot already! Enjoy reading my readers! I must now study for my very first midterm of the quarter tomorrow! Wow, I love psychology!

Oh yeah, limerence and love are two different things. My perception about love is... you know you LOVE a person (like a romantic kind of love) when you are willing to DIE for them.. sounds extreme, but I think that's when you know. It sucks because thinking about all of this makes me sad.. like all the feelings you have for a person all have scientific explanations. I guess it's not good to believe that my feelings for Jonathan are all psychological, biochemical, and scientific.. bc I know the feelings I have for him are MUCH more than that.. hmm.. but tomorrow I'm gonna blog about that subject, so stay tuned!

Human Sexuality
I was a little late for class today because Jonathan and I had to pick up Joanne at school, but no biggie! I was able to miss the first 20 minutes of class, which was the most boring part. However, Human Sexuality was GREAT today. I learned a lot about love and relationships. First of all, we learned about (and how to find) the Grafenberg spot also known as the G-spot. So it's not a myth, there really is a pleasure spot in women... want more detailed info? Ask me... haha. The most interesting topic she discussed today was Chemical Influences on Attraction and Love. You know that HIGH you get when you first meet someone? Your heart beats really fast, you can't talk, your pain tolerance is great (bc you're so numb), etc.. yeah, that HIGH continues and lasts up until the moment you know the person is YOURS.. like when you have no more fear of losing that person, then that high is gone.. it's pretty sad really. So, that's an explanation why there are some people who break up after that high disappears bc they think something is wrong with them, but really, there isn't (well most of the time). So yeah, that moment when you stop getting that high, is called TOLERANCE. You are tolerant of your partner, and sometimes, you may become "sick" of the other person. That's where DECLINE comes in. But my teacher talked about how week (more or less, depending on how long the relationship is) breaks from each other after a HIGH has gone away is good bc when you see that person, you get that high all over again, but the cycle sometimes continues. HOWEVER, if you're lucky and if you're relationship is strong, you develop these bonding hormones (endorphins) that are responsible for the mushy stuff like nicknames. These hormones produce feelings of security, safety, comfort, well-being, etc... and those feelings go on as long as the relationship lasts. So in a nutshell, the cycle starts with attraction, tolerance & decline, then repeats, but sometimes bonding hormones occur after. Also, I guess a lot of people asked why females get really attached after having sex. Interested? Well, there is this hormone called oxytocin (more in women than in men) which is responsible for that feeling of attachment. This hormone is released during an orgasm.. and as most of you know, orgasms occur during intercourse, foreplay, and masturbation. So a woman can still "bond" to a man even when the man isn't there through masterbation. So, if you don't want a woman to become EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED to you, don't give her an orgasm. bottom line. Oh yeah, and men have SOME of this hormone, so they become emotionally attached too. But that emotional bond happens when they experience danger PLUS an orgasm. So a big scary brother/dad sometimes contributes to a man bonding to you. But again, all of these things vary from person to person.. it's just a general thing. Isn't it interesting though how LOVE and ATTRACTION are all in the brain!? After that class i went to boring biology with ben (ooh alliteration!).

Oh yeah, I thought that it was pretty crazy when she said that that feeling you get when you are first attracted to someone is VERY similar to the feeling you get after smoking a phat blunt. Weird, yet true.

Last night was yet another fun night at work. I folded 3 of the tables in the girls front room along with 2 other guys.. one was gay so it was funny when he kept calling the straight one a "breeder".. but they were pretty entertaining because they were flowing.. hella funny! I found out that I didn't have to fold all the freakin tables AFTER I finished.. I had to fold the tables in the BACK room.. so I "air" folded all those dam sweaters (that are on sale by the way!) and folded the pj pants with Diana. Afterwards, we met up with Jonathan, stopped by and ate at his parents' house then headed to Fremont to Goodrich's little going away thing. He's not coming back for another 4 or 5 months, so I'll miss you buddy! We hung out for a little while then went home because it was late already.

Today, I was supposed to catch up on all of my reading for all of my classes, but that was a failed attempt. Instead, I hung out with Jonathan and my sister til about 5pm STILL in our pajamas and stuff.. haha. Jonathan left to run errands with his sis, so my sister and I continued to do nothing. When Jonathan came back, we went to VF and I bought stuff at Hollister with my employee discount.. I love it! We went to my grandparents' house, but they already finished doing the rosary.. it was the last day of the rosary crusade too! So, we just ate.. A LOT! yum. I watched "American Idol" with my entire family and "My Big Fat Obnoxious Fiance".. both were funny. Aww man, I'm going back to school tomorrow morning.. boo! But at least my first class of the week is my favorite!!! Human Sexuality!

POP QUIZ!
On friday, Jonathan accompanied me during my psychology statistics class. I had so much fun with him in class because I don't think I'll ever experience being in the same class as him! We wrote on each other's notes and everything. At the end of class, there was a POP QUIZ and Jonathan did great!

Learned lesson #93590345984
Right after class, Jonathan and I were planning to leave for San Jose STRAIGHT, but Sherilyn and Ellison needed a ride home, so we had to go back to the dorms to pick them up. They wanted to take care of some parking ticket business, so Jonathan decided to pay for one that he got. We go to Quarry Plaza and Jonathan parks in a parking space "racer style". 2 seconds later (and I really mean 2 seconds), I see this cop behind Jonathan's car writing down his license plate number then goes in front of the car and takes a picture of it with all of us in the car, excluding Jonathan who was getting money from the ATM machine. 10 seconds later (and I really mean 10 seconds), Jonathan RUNSSS to the cop who was printing out the ticket. As I look behind, I see that Jonathan was parked in a HANIDCAPPED PARKING SPACE!!! After trying to negotiate something with the officer, the officer says that there is a NO TOLERANCE law thing, and hands Jonathan his $275 fine! klasfklasfkkjlasfdkjfsdal! I wanted to cry for my poor Jonathan. So including the new fine he recieved that day, he owes $427 in tickets alone! =( It's ok nosepicker, we'll just give up 15 sushi dinners and WE will be able to pay those tickets off! love ya!

Fun times to forget stupid times.
We drop Sherilyn and Ellison off at Ellison's place then pick up Diana at Villiard's house. We wait for Villiard to come to my house, go to my grandparents' house, eat, then they do the rosary with my family and I. We meet up with Jonathan's cousins and their significant others at Mercado and watched "Along Came Polly" which was really funny by the way. We visit Jonathan's niece and they all play with their toys. I've never seen a more exciting game of uno stackers (or something like that.. it's exactly like Jenga).. and watching them play with the itoy was just as entertaining. Back at my house, the 4 of us hang out some more, then Villiard goes home. I end up falling asleep on the couch while Diana falls asleep on the floor. I woke up when Jonathan was trying to squeeze his fat ass onto the couch with me, so we both transferred to the floor with Diana. Vill came over in the morning, that couple got breakfast at McDonald's.

Happy 19th Bday Mehgan!
Meg's bday thing at Dave n Buster's was at 12, but Jonathan and I left my house at 12 and still had to run some errands. We arrive at 2pm.. haha, but there was still food left for us. Jonathan plays pool with some guys and Villiard, while I eat. We sing Meg happy bday, eat cake, take pictures, played a racing game, then left. Vill, Di, Vill's cousin and I go to VF and I didn't get shit, too tired! Back at my house, I rested, cleaned, and went with my mom to my grandparents' house again.. picked up my sis at gmall with my cousins, prayed the rosary with my family, then went home.

Jonathan corrupting little children!
Jonathan comes to my house right after work and teaches my little 11 year old twin cousins how to play texas holdem! They are now pros at "betting" "calling" "raising" and "bluffing"! I fall asleep on the couch again, but this time, Jonathan didn't bother squeezing his big ass onto it. This morning, they were all playing poker again. Oh Jonathan.

Yeah so today started off on a crappy note because of that stupid mr/ms anonymous, but only for about an hour. My MARVELOUS mommy called me (yah you know the woman who spoils me to death, according to you, anonymous) and I can't wait to see her tomorrow. Then my WONDERFUL boyfriend called me and told me to ignore that dumbass person. Yep, he even came HERE to santa cruz to see me.. how do you like that huh ANONYMOUS? He took me out for some sushi.. and took me out for a movie. YUP, he's great isn't he? JEALOUS!!??! He still loves me regardless of the crap you said =P Hmm.. oh yeah, Sherilyn and Ellison came along with us to watch "Chasing Liberty", it was cute, but really predictable, but still cute. I'm excited about going home tomorrow because Jonathan and I are going to spend time with our families (together of course), then Diana's gonna sleep over bc she's coming home from SLO! Yay! And I'll probably work this weekend too, fun times! And I don't have to go back til Tuesday! yay!

I love you friends! I love you sister! I love you Jonathan! I love you mommy!

its strange to see someone vent about something thats none of their business. even though it seems like you know the history of jule and i, it doesn't mean that you can preach and tell us whats up. we know all that. its how we function as a relationship. some days we have times when we argue- and it may look like its totally hardcore. but its not. our history goes way back and we understand each other enough that we know our limits- we know how to piss each other off, and we know how to make the other happy. i know we may be young but our relationship is growing. everyday is a challenge and we are still learning. i love her. and it may seem that i'm doing all the work in this relationship but really it takes two. if you really think you're helping us, you're not. mr/ms. ananymous if you're one of my closest friends, just call me- don't post it on a chatter box. its dumb.

Wow.. I didn't know my late night post would stir up so much controversy. I even said I would delete it. But for whoever you are anonymous, maybe you have known me for a long time, maybe you've known him for a long time too, but you don't know our relationship. You just see how it is on the outside, and I already said that I look like the bad guy. Do you think Jonathan would be stupid enough to stay in a relationship with me for this long if he had all the opinions you had? One, who are you to say that he revolves his schedule around me? Being in a relationship takes up a lot of time and commitment and changing up schedules. We do whatever we can for each other. Two, don't you DARE freakin judge me. So what if my mom has given me everything I needed. My mom is the only person I have, sorry if you have both your parents. And just because I haven't had a "paying" job does NOT mean I haven't worked a day in my life ok, I'm getting paid now if that makes any difference. Also, Jonathan isn't living on his own.. he still gets help from his parents too, but yes, he does work for his money. Three, you say that I need to get over myself? Oh my gosh, give me a fucking break. Am I not allowed to vent about my own boyfriend? Everytime I open my mouth, I get shit for it. I already said that I loved the boy with all my heart and I really would do anything for him. Maybe you should talk to Jonathan and see what he really thinks about me. I know we both aren't perfect, but I think we're perfect for each other. We help each other out in ways A LOT of people don't see. Maybe my bestest friends, but not someone like you. Four, I DO respect my boyfriend, and I DO look myself in the mirror. I think I've accomplished a lot, and I am proud of myself for everything I've gone through and for everything I have acheived. Five, I'm not going to change for anyone. Jonathan can decide for himself if he wants to be "gone...AGAIN". I guess you didn't know the story behind that either. I broke up with him the first time alright.. after time, the feeling was mutual. Whatever, you just don't know. Maybe you are doing it out of love, but it was out of love, you wouldn't be afraid to say who you are. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions, but if Jonathan didn't really love me, he wouldn't be with me anymore. If you know Jonathan, you know he's got a heart of gold. But if you really have a problem about me "bitching" and how it never "disappeared" then tell me.. why are you scared? Anyway, we'll leave everything up to Jonathan since I guess he's the topic of discussion.

I guess I had a tiring day bc I just woke up from a nap that started around 5 or 6pm, I don't remember? I wish I was home already, this week is going by sooo slowly. I know I was just home yesterday morning, but dam.. it's ok, the bf is coming to scoop me away and is taking me out tomorrow night, then we're gonna leave to san jose right after my last class on friday. But dam, I'm still so bored bc Diana's in the shower, so I can't chat with her right now, Sherilyn is napping, so I don't wanna turn on the TV, and Jonathan is out eating SUSHI with his cousins and all their significant others (it's ok HONEYBEE, I'm with you in spirit).

So it was another unproductive day even though I thought I would be productive at home.. oh well. I hung out with my sis, took her to bball practice, Lisa came over for a bit to pick up her clothes, but she ended up forgetting those, picked up my sister from bball practice, went home, went to my grandparents house to pray the rosary bc Mary is in their house now, hung out with my cousins, ate dinner, watched tv, went home again, cleaned my room, picked Jonathan up from work, watched Jonathan and Leanna eat, played with my comp, and now it's time for bed. Shucks.. I didn't do any hw again.

Sunday morning my mom woke everyone up with her beautiful loud voice around 930am, so the other boys, besides John (who was the first one to sleep) had only like 3 or 4 hours of sleep. I cleaned the house, then Jonathan and I went to get haircuts. First, he went to his haircut place while I napped in the car. Then, we went to my haircut place while he went to Jamba Juice to get his wallet from Ikan (who was working) then went back to pick me up. My hair is hella short now.. it's as short as it was when I was in 6th grade. For those of you didn't know me in 6th grade, it's up to my shoulders, which is a big change from my hair down to my ass to up to my shoulders. Jonathan and my mother both agree that I look younger, eh well. So Jonathan went off to work, while I occupied myself for a few hours before heading to work myself! I talked to Diana on the phone for a while, then picked up Meg.

First Day of Work at my First Job!
Meg and I arrive at VF a bit early, so we clock in. However, the stupid management didn't enter me into the system and it's been how long since I've been hired? Eh.. anyway, Chris, the general manager had me RE-fill out all the shit I filled out at orientation, which was really dumb. It's hard to imagine how in the hell they lost ALL my paperwork. Oh well, it wasn't that bad.. haha. So I got to workin! First, I learned how to fold jeans in a special kind of way.. 3 special kinds of ways to be exact. So I finished an entire wall of jeans right, then this stupid ass customer decides to dig through the jeans and pulls out one and messes up one of the stacks! ahhh! I wanted to hit her.. then she puts the jeans back all messy. Now I know to be a bit more considerate when I shop. The store closed, then all the overnight workers showed up. I folded sweaters with Meg for a while.. then "built" walls, meaning, we took a whole bunch of clothes from the stockroom and whatever was out on the floor, and copied the pictures Chris wanted us to copy (we arranged the clothes according to the pictures). Hmm.. then Meg and I spent the last 3 hours of the night BOARD folding freakin boys shirts!!!! I HATE board folding.. and the shirts kept coming and coming.. and I'm not exaggerating when I say we folded over 200 shirts. So if you're ever at Hollister at VF, and you go in the back room of the boys section, PLEASE be nice to the shirts! The last hour, the manager told us to air fold the shirts, so it went faster. We put all the hangers away, picked up all the price tags the fell off, made the store look pretty, then we all walked to our cars. All in all, I had a pretty fun time at work bc there are about 5 gay guys, and they are so funny and fun and keep us awake until we're done. I'm pretty excited to be working here now.

After work, I waited for Jonathan to arrive at my house, then we took Megs home.. stopped by Wendy's bc I was hungry, got ready for bed, then IIIIII went to bed while Jonathan was playing on the computer. I woke up and Jonathan was snoring away.. haha.. even though he's loud while he sleeps, he's so cute!

So I was the first one to wake up this morning, but Jonathan ended up taking a shower first, so I was stuck making the bed and cleaning my room. I guess that's ok since it's my room. My mom came home for lunch, talked to her for a bit, then were on our way to Santa Cruz. On the way there, I ask Jonathan about my laptop and why the pictures were all gone when I tried to go on it this morning. He had no idea why.. oh yeah, I forgot to mention that he decided he would reinstall EVERYTHING on my laptop, including windows XP, so it would be faster and yadda yadda yadda. So I trusted him, but he freakin got all my pictures deleted!!!! and my schedule of classes for this quarter!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND my GE and MAJOR requirements worksheet that I made for myself which took like 5 hours long!!!! =***(. But it was an honest mistake I guess, the pictures and documents didn't burn onto the CD, and Jonathan didn't bother looking. BUT, it's ok... those pictures were slowing down my computer anyway, and when I am bored, I'll make another worksheet for myself. So sorry jonathan for being mean! OH YEAH, I forgot to mention that I was so upset, that I didn't go to class and I was late anyways. So after being in Santa Cruz for about 10 minutes, we leave back to San Jose.. haha yeah we're crazy. So now, I am home, I will be returning to good ol' Santa Cruz tomorrow. Tootles!

Wow.. what a great Saturday I had yesterday! Jonathan, Leanna, and I slept downstairs and woke up to the sound of my mom cooking breakfast for us. Jonathan, Leanna, and I got ready after my mom left to go out with my stepdad. We dropped Leanna off at Chanel's house bc they were going to a party.. then Jonathan and I went to VF to return stuff and get price adjustments. I didn't have time to shop though bc Jonathan had work soon, so we rushed to his apartment so he could get his uniform for work.. then rushed back to my house. Jonathan left for work then Hansen and Jeremy picked me up, picked Mehgan up, and went back to Valley Fair! NOW, I had time to shop.. I just bought stuff at Banana, AE, and Hollister. We saw Micaela and Michelle when we were leaving, talked for a bit, then left to eat at Pasta Pomodoro. Jeremy said he would treat Hansen and I out, but he only had $15.. oh Jeremy! Then we headed to Hansen's house and he was getting everything together for his trip back to DC. I talked to his grandma for a while and played with RJ and Desiree. Hansen dropped Meg, Jer, and I off at Jer's house to get his car, and I said bye to Hansen bc I wasn't going to the airport with them bc I had to clean the house and wait for Jonathan to get out of work.

So I cleaned the house, watched TV, and John, Goodrich, and Mike came over. They wanted to see my room, so we chilled upstairs for a bit, then Meg and Jer came back from the Oakland airport. Jonathan was lagging, so they all just raided my fridge and cupboards while we waited for the KING of LAGGING! Jonathan, the King, finally came, but then he said we had to wait some more bc he was waiting for Ikan. So Jer and Jonathan played holdem for a while for ONE DOLLAR ONLY! haha. So Ikan arrived, and we FINALLY left around 12am-ish to go to Mike's grad party at Nate's house. Jonathan ran over Nate's foot with his car! Stupid Jonathan! bleh.. the party was ok I guess. Meg and I were scared to approach Jenna bc we weren't sure if it was her, but it was.. haha. Hmm.. so all I did was chill bc yeah.. everyone was drunk or drinking, but I was driving home. About an hour or two later, we left. John, Mike, and Goodrich slept over my house with Jonathan and I. I think Jonathan, Mike, and Goodrich left around 3am to go to Jack in the Box while John and I were already sleeping in the living room.

Mehgan called me at 6:56am this morning and told me that I could enroll in Biology already.. so I rushed out of bed, and enrolled on the first try! After that, I felt like I had to do more, but I didn't. I tried to go back to bed but couldn't. I dozed off by 8:45 but woke up again at 9:15ish.. ehh, I've had lots of broken sleep this week, but now that I am FINALLY enrolled in Biology, no more early mornings. I'm glad too bc Mondays I don't have class til 2pm.. Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays, I don't start til 12pm, and Fridays, I don't have class til 11am.. pretty dam good if you ask me.

I called Jonathan as soon as my first class ended, and when I got off the bus to go to my dorm, he was standing right there! yay! We went to my dorm and Micaela and Eillen were there! They're staying with Dianne and Michelle tonight. So anyway, Meg, Sher, and I headed to San Jose with Jonathan as the driver yet again. We dropped Sher off, picked up Hansen, and were about to go to SF to pick up Jer from the airport, but he was already on his way home. So instead, we went to Mitsuwa, this Japanese supermarket, then ate some sushi at Ariake. Jer was finally at home so we went to visit him. He showed us all the bootleg stuff he bought in the PI, and everything looks pretty dam real! The fake Gucci watch and the Jordans. We all leave and go to my house bc Jer didn't want to stay home anymore. We watched "Kill Bill" and "American Wedding".. they played Holdem.. Mehgan made cinnamon rolls and chicken nuggets.. and we all just hung out. When "American Wedding" was finished, we headed to Lee Noodle House bc we were having pearl drink cravings and it was too late to go anywhere else. Hmm.. we had fun making fun of Jer's fat fingers and chipped tooth.. freaked out about Mad Cow Disease from the meat there (especially the Pho) and that's it. Jer's mom called, so Jonathan and I got dropped off while Jer took Meg and Hansen home. I love how it's friday!!! Too bad I have to catch up with my Bio reading.. freakin 5 chapters!

I couldn't sleep last night again so I ended up falling asleep around 3am.. but the worst part is that I had to take up at 7am again to see if I could still enroll in Biology.. argh! Anyway, I went to my Feminism and Human Sexuality classes. In Human Sexuality, the teacher was asking all 500 students to shout out where they get their sex information from, it was pretty interesting.. a lot of guys said porn from the internet and Maxim.. and girls said fashion magazines. Someone suggested that they got sex education from their parents, but some random boy yelled out that his parents don't have sex anymore.. I dunno kinda random, but I really like that class, and another plus is that I have Lorelei with me in the class! OK, then went to Biology.. hella freakin boring but I passed the exam, so I can enroll for sure, but not until TOMORROW or even SATURDAY.. so I freakin have to wake up at 7am again to enroll bc the spots left in that class are filling up fast. Let's all pray that I get in tomorrow morning yeah? But then, I'm still debating if I should take Intro to Feminism or Cell and Molecular Biology.. I can't take both bc I can't take no more than 19 credits, and with those 2 classes, I already have 20. Anyone have any suggestions on what I should take?

Oh yeah, we just had a floor meeting about a lot of people here at College Ten getting written up for drug and alcohol abuse.. so our RA told us to party responsibly and respectfully? Eh.. I'm not here on the weekends when they party hard, and partying during the week exhausts me, so I don't have to worry about getting written up.. and then getting kicked out if I get written up too much. ok the end.

After going to bed at 330am (doing hw), I woke up in a panic bc I thought I overslept, but I only overslept 25 minutes, it was freakin 725 am. I rushed to my computer without my contacts and enrolled in the class I wanted just in case I couldn't get into Biology still. It was sooo hard without my contacts, bc if you know me, you know HOW bad my vision is. Anyway, I tried to go back to sleep bc Jonathan was still snoring away, but I kept thinking about if I really wanted to take that Feminism class I just enrolled in. I called Sherilyn and she said she enrolled in Sociology.. "SOCIOLOGY, ooOOOH" I said to myself. So I went to the laptop, dropped Feminism, enrolled in Sociology, and proceeded back to bed. But then I started thinking ALL over again about if I really wanted to take the 8am sociology class.. "HELL NO" I said to myself, so I checked if the Feminism class was still available.. it was freakin FULL already!! I only dropped it 5 minutes ago and my spot was already filled.. ahh.. I started panicking. I tried for an hour straight to get into that class, but no luck, so Sociology it was. I finally was able to sleep at around 10am and Jonathan woke me up at 1130. He was in a good mood bc he had 8 full hours of sleep. I showered, Meg and Sher was dropped off at my house by Hansen, I finished getting ready, and Jonathan drove us back to santa cruz (with a quick detour to McDonald's first). Jonathan walked me to my first class of the day (well he drove me, parked, then walked me).. then bid me farewell =( But it's ok bc I'm gonna see him again tomorrow bc it's THURSDAY. After class, I tried to add the feminism class and it wasn't full anymore! So I dropped sociology with the quickness and added feminism with the first try. *Phew* If I get my Bio score tomorrow and pass, then I'm gonna drop Feminism and take bio instead.. argh, I'm getting sick bc I'm stressed about my stupid classes.. and these stupid menstrual cramps..

My first class of the day started at 12, but I got there pretty early and walked in on a class that was already going on. It ended up being quantum mechanics so I was pretty dam lost.. anyway, I'm excited for my Human Sexuality class bc not only do I have it with Lorelei, but we have options about taking 2 multiple choice midterms or writing research papers and blah blah.. I forgot the details.. so yeah, for sure I'm not gonna take the freakin midterms. After that, the teacher took role.. freakin 450 students.. argh. Good thing my last name doesn't start with a "z". Then I went with Sherilyn to crash the Biology course we want to take.. it was freakin HELLA full.. there were students sitting on the stairs and shit.. So I'm gonna wake up hella early and try to enroll. We ended up leaving the class early and I spent the rest of my time searching for alternative classes I could take and stressing out.. bleh. Jonathan finally picked us up.

Jonathan, Sher, Meg, and I headed over to Hansen's house for his bday. We waited for the rest of his friends to come, pick up people, and after changing his mind 2398420934 times, he decides he wants to go to the Metreon in SF to eat dinner. Oh yeah, before that, Sher, Daryl, Jonathan, and I were enjoying ourselves just parked outside of Anne's house bc we found some wireless connection on our laptops.. so we had fun.. anyway, we ate at Jillian's and the food didn't fill me up at all, but it was good! Jonathan, Hansen, Daryl, Luke, Narciso, and Hansen's other friend went to go play pool while the girls (me, Meg, Sher, Anne, and Ces) stayed bc some of them were still eating. Some guys from the bar came up to our table and asked Sherilyn if we wanted to play pool with them and Sher said, "do you guys wanna play pool?" haha.. DUH Sherilyn! I politely told those guys that they could play pool with our boyfriends who were already playing. They laughed and said, "but we want to play with the girlfriends".. we didn't laugh so they just walked away. We paid for the bill then watched them play for a while. Jonathan ended up winning whoever he was playing against. Hmm.. we left.. paid for parking while some hobos were hasseling us for money. Hansen was already telling them to stop bc he already gave one of them his chapstick. On our way to the Metreon, a hobo was asking Sher and I for money, and I walked a little faster to catch up with Jonathan, so Sher was left behind while Daryl was behind them laughing.. and the hobo said, "don't tell me you're afraid of black people. we've been here for over 400 or 500 years. I'm a combat veteren.. blah blah." He was lecturing Sher.. I felt kinda bad for leaving her.. haha but it was funny. Anyway, we drop Daryl and Jenna off after our long drive back to San Jose and go back to my house and call it a night. I did some hw and now it's time for bed.

First Day of Winter Quarter.
Who cares if I blog 495309543 times a day right? Because I sure don't. So it was my first day of classes today. Last night, Jonathan and I spent an hour and a half looking for a classroom, but I didn't end up going to that class today bc I decided to drop it. It didn't go to a waste though bc at least I know where one more place is located on this humungo campus. After trying to wake Jonathan up 3248409234 times, we both continued to sleep. However, after a whlie, I couldn't go back to sleep anymore so I just kept on annoying him until he woke up and drove home. I dropped some classes, looked up potential classes I can still add, and fixed my schedule. I called my mom bc I was homesick and I started crying again.. I dunno what's up with me, it's the PMS kickin in. Anyway... finally, I had class at 2pm and I really like it. It's a pretty small class (small meaning 100 compared to the normal lecture of 300-400) and our exams are open book/notes.. so yay! I met up with Sherilyn and we took a Biology Placement Exam. It was pretty easy if you ask me, but then again, I don't want to jinx myself. Hopefully I am placed in the biology class I want to be in bc I already added it to the schedule I made for myself for this quarter. We were hungry from the test taking so we ate at the Dining Hall.. it's been forever since we ate there bc we ran out of meals 2 or 3 weeks before the quarter ended last quarter, so we ate all of our meals in our dorm or off campus (but mostly in our dorm). I saw Lorelei and Jo when we were done eating.. I saw Jo on the bus earlier too. Hmm.. then Sher and I went to Slug Books to buy books for the quarter.. frickin $106 for the stupid Biology book.. I'll wait til I actually get IN to the class before I buy it. Back at our dorm, I was EXTREMELY bored, so I organized my clothes drawers and my hair/accessories/toiletree drawers, organized my wallet, and packed some stuff to take home that I don't need here in Santa Cruz anymore. I talked to Jonathan on the phone for a while.. then Diana.. and even Daryl and Joshie called me telling me to ditch school for the week and go to Tahoe.. and then I started reading articles online about Britney and her 12 hour marriage. I still don't care what everyone says about her, I still love her... ok and now I'm blogging. Maybe I should do my hw early!!! Great start to a new quarter, except for the fact that I'm enrolled in ALL but one class.. yikes.

Oh yeah, people on my floor were smoking out again last night with a lot of their friends.. and they just finished smoking out again tonight, but only bc the proctor caught them.. sucks for them! Oh yeah, and also last night, Sherilyn was freakin talking in her sleep.. haha you dork! She said something like, "ajljflsjfdlkasdflkasjdflakjdsflkdsfj!!!"

I miss being at home already =(. I dunno what it is about home that I love so much. Jonathan spent the night here in SC bc I was already homesick.. it's pretty pathetic I tell ya. I'm home friday night to monday morning EVERY week, but I still can't get enough of home. Especially after this WONDERFUL winter break. This was my best one so far. Not only did I get my Uggs and Fair Isle Gap collection, but I was able to spend time with MOST of my friends and my FANTASTIC family... and each time with them was FUUUUUN! I went ice skating.. I went to Christmas in the park.. I went to the movies.. I went to the mall EVERY DAY (and I'm not exaggerating.. and last but not least, I GOT A FRICKIN JOB! This winter break gets an A-.. a minus bc Jonathan was gone in vegas for a while, but he made up for it just being him. I'm excited for this new year and new quarter. I get to start over fresh. Ahh... but I still miss you home!!!

My mom decided to vacuum hella early this morning! Well it wasn't that early but geez.. you know how annoying a vacuum is when you're trying to sleep? Anyway, Jonathan, Leanna, and I watched "The New Guy" on cable.. then Jonathan and I changed and stuff and ran some errands. We went to Walmart to buy food for my dorm and a 3 subject notebook. Then we grabbed a late lunch at In N Out and went back to my house. We finished putting all the crap in Jonathan's car and lagged around the house for a while. We watched "Christina vs. Britney" and "The Fabulous Life of Britney Spears" on VH1 with my mommy and sister. We said our goodbyes and I drove to Santa Cruz. I was freaking out bc I HAAAAAATE driving at night, most especially highway 17, which I even hate during the day. I took the wrong exit and pulled over, and Jonathan put on the hazard lights. I guess a highway patrol officer thought we were in trouble so he came up to our window. He just asked if we needed help and he gave us directions to UCSC. My heart was beating pretty fast though even though I didn't do anything wrong. There's just that thing about police officers that make me nervous ALL the time. I unpacked.. printed out my schedule.. and for about 2 hours, Jonathan and I went all around UCSC by car and by foot looking for my classes for tomorrow. I'm too lazy to go into detail but we did LOTS of walking. blah blah blah.. we hung around the dorm with Sher.. now it's time for bed. Good night my readers!

I actually woke up in the morning today and woke Jonathan up bc we were supposed to go to the DMV bc he needs to renew his driver's license still. When he arrived at my house, I was still in bed. It was funny bc he was getting mad and for ONCE, it was him rushing me. Anyway, he gets the shower ready for me and I get ready. I went downstairs so we could go, but he said the DMV was closed.. and we did some research on when it was open and yadda yadda. Since we had nothing to do and he had time to kill before heading off to work, we cooked a late breakfast. Eggs with cheese and turkey? I'm not sure what kind of meat Jonathan used. After our little breakfast, I fell asleep on the couch watching TV while Jonathan was on the computer playing texas holdem. It was time for him to go to work so he kissed me good bye and I went back to sleep. I woke up at 4pm.. man my days are getting more and more boring and less and less productive, so I decided to be productive. I started packing to go back to school =( I don't want to go back bc I LOVE being home. Eh, so now I have 23983024 bags full of clothes and I still need to go grocery shopping, toiletree shopping, and school supply shopping for the new quarter which starts on MONDAY. Hmm.. I hung out with my sis, ate a King Egg Roll dinner with my mommy, and watched TV til the bf arrived. We went to his apartment and moved the rest of his stuff and I helped him organize all his other junk til 3am. I'm finally home and my sister and I just finished baking cookies.. yum. Time for a LATE night snack!

Wow.. this year has been action-packed that it's too hard to keep up with everything I've been doing.. NOT! Jonathan and I were supposed to go to the DMV this morning, but we both overslept and didn't wake up til 2pm again.. and since he had work at 3, there wasn't much that we could do. He stopped by with McDonald's.. we ate.. then he took my laptop and went to work. So again, I was computer-less and internet-less for another day. Hmm... I helped my mom with groceries, annoyed Jonathan while he was at work, and watched TV with my sister. Finally, work was over and Jonathan came over, but left again bc he had to talk to his mom about his speeding ticket.. tsk tsk. He came back, we all ate lasagna, watched Disney Channel and Degrassi, and now I am watching more TV with my sister while Jonathan and Raymond are moving into their new apartment (upstairs from their old one) as I type.

New Year's Eve/Jonathan's 20th.
Jonathan left my house the stroke of midnight, so I was the first one to greet him happy bday. Anyway, I think right when I woke up, I started getting ready for my night bc Jonathan was going to pick me up right when he got out of work. We lagged around my house, greeted my mom and sister an early happy new year's, and finally ran the errands we needed to run. We went to Walmart to buy Cranium, but they were sold out, so we settled for the Cranium his mom bought for $40 at Target. We were both starving, so right when we got to his house, we started eating the food his mom prepared for the party. After that, we watched VH1 in the den.. it was about the 100 most shocking rock n roll events in history.. it was pretty interesting, but we both ended up falling asleep. Then, Jonathan woke up and I woke up and his family started coming. We spent the first few hours of the night playing Cranium. The first time, it was me, Jonathan, Donald, and Mark on one time, and Joanne, Desiree, Bea, and Jen on another. We started over bc Jonathan's other cousin Janice and her bf wanted to join in. So the teams changed.. it was me, Jonathan, and Bea on one time, but he abandoned us for a while bc his other friends showed up with a poker table, so he played with them instead.. TRAITOR! Anyway, I forgot who won? I think Desiree, Mark, and Joanne. It was so much fun playing though.. especially when I had to guess "Sopranos" and "Oscar the Grouch" huh Jonathan? Anyway, I went to the den where Jonathan, Nate, Jon Ikan, and his other cousin Ryan was playing Texas Holdem. I played with Jonathan though bc I had no money to gamble. I forgot who ended up winning but they were playing up until 11:55. We all went to the living room, counted down with everyone, and greeted everyone a happy new year! I was able to actually kiss Jonathan exactly at midnight.. in front of all his family too! haha.. kinda weird, but kinda cool now that we're "old" enough. Hmm.. they continued playing Texas Holdem but then Mark joined in. Oh man.. these guys were crazy with their money, they just kept buying chips from me (I was the designated banker). So I called my mom at my uncle's house first and greeted everyone there a happy new year, then called Lisa, then Diana, then John. Jonathan bet "all in" and lost all of his chips and lost.. but it was ok bc we needed to go and visit my family. At my uncle Charlie's house were my 4 crazy cousins, 3 of their cousins, my sister, my mom, my grandparents, my aunt, my uncle, and my stepdad. It was pretty dam loud there even though it was only them. We had fun greeting everyone and eating some more. Jonathan started playing video games with my cousin Charlie and finally stopped around 2am and went back to his house. Everyone was still playing Holdem so Jonathan joined in again. All of Jonathan's relatives started leaving around 3am and his dad had his other friends leave. Jonathan and I tidy up as much as we could then headed back to my house. We started watching "S.W.A.T." downstairs, but ended up falling asleep around 4am. We both had a great slumber and we were both pretty comfortable wrapped in all the blankets we had. Wow.. that was long.

New Year's Day.
We both slept so comfortably that we woke up at 2pm!! Jonathan had work at 3 so while he was getting ready, I stayed sitting on my ass and watched TV. I ended up watching TV allll day downstairs.. those stupid marathons were addicting! I watched "That's So Raven" the most though.. man I love that show. I started watching the American Idol on the Road Show then left 10 minutes before it was early to my uncle's house to pick up my sister. They ordered pizza and we all watched "World Idol". I'm so sad that Kelly Clarkson didn't get it and that stupid Norwegian guy got it.. but I have to admit that he was reallly good. We gathered all of my sister's belongings then headed home. We watched more TV and Jonathan came over right after work. Jonathan, Leanna, and I watched episodes of "Degrassi" and after, finally watched "S.W.A.T." Dam, that movie sucked.. I think people hyped it up way too much. We watched one last episode of "That's So Raven" and then Jonathan left. Now, my sister and I are watching "Loser" on USA. Everything I blogged might have sounded pretty boring, but for some reason I had so much fun! I was able to spend the last day of the year and the first day of the year with my loved ones.. we all had a blast too even if we didn't go party and get drunk like a lot of other people. Yay 2004!