SENIORITIS.
Alright folks, I have a MAJOR case of Senioritis. I thought that I started to develop this as a junior just because I was lazy and sleeply all the time, but boy was I wrong. At least I actually cared about my home/schoolwork and my grades... but recently, I just don't care! Shoot... just as long as I get a 3.0, that'll be A-OK with me. See, I would procrastinate and stay up late because I had hw, but now, I stay up late and NOT do hw at all. I no longer procrastinate, I just don't do it at all. In the morning time, I would shut the snooze button a few times before I woke up, now I wake up before the alarm, but just stay in bed because I just don't want to go to school. I spent countless minutes just laying there wishing NOT to go, but I have to force myself up each time. I really have no more motivation to work anymore. Why can't our teachers understand and STOP giving us busywork? ahhhhh

It's been a long while since I've been able to blog. Spring Break is so blogworthy too! Well let's see.. this is what I did in a nut shell: drove to Jessica McClintock in SF twice, watched 3 movies: "Malibu's Most Wanted", "View From the Top", and "Identity", visited UC Santa Cruz (and loved it), was in Reztyleen's cotillion (I kinda miss practices!), went out for breakfast twice with my dear Jonathan at McDonald's (I was rushing) and IHOP (oooh.. chocolate pancakes!), had a karaoke session at Villiard's, quit my very first job in a way (after a day of training), got into a fight with Jonathan (because he was being a dumb dumb stupid stupid boy), and ended vacation with Bellarmine Prom which was very fun (all of ND was there). Hmm.. I think I went to various malls a few times for some shopping sessions with Di and Sher, spent countless hours at Sher's, and more of this and that. On Easter Sunday, I slept the entire morning until about 2 or 3pm, went to my aunt's to eat, and I think I went back home. I spent my last day (Sunday) sleeping, eating, talking, and wrote my research paper in 4 hours (7pm to 11pm). So that was my Spring Break in a nut shell. I wish I remembered more of it. ahhh.. I want my phoneline in my room to work! Being internet-less is probably the hardest thing in the world! Good thing my lifesaver lent me his laptop =)

Today was an interesting day. It was my LAST liturgy at Notre Dame! I may never step foot into that Cathedral ever again =(. It sucked too because it was raining on our way there. Good thing I had my umbrella stored in my car; I grabbed it for Angie and I. Later on I went to see my stupid nerd. He was incredibly mean! He was so mean that it made me tear up! Geez. I had cotillion practice with Jer.. then went to Michelle's where the homies were. Ceezie, Joshie, Romelie, Sher, Angie, Jefferey, Christopher Lic, and I jumped into Mich's van and we went to eat at Chili's. I ordered dessert only, because I was full from all the other food I ate. I was so full that I wanted to throw up.. yuck. We went back to Mich's, along with Linnie.. that's when the craziness began. So Mich has satellite and she gets EVERY channel. We put it on "Jerry Springer Uncenosored 3." Dude.. it was so freakin gross! These girls who stuffed jello down their bikinis got naked and did nasty shit! I was like WTF they're not censoring the boobies! Then one of the boys pointed out that it was "uncensored." We flipped the channels some more and tried to figure out the storyline to this porno. Mich got upset, so she took out the card thingy. Yeah, it was some nasty/freaky shit. Alright I'm tired. Angie is makin us pancakes in the morning! I love spring break! But not the research paper (which is also a GRADUATION REQUIREMENT) that is due the day I get back.

I can't believe I have less than 2 months until I graduate from good ol' Notre Dame. I still remember freshmen year... wearing my crisp new gray skirt and white polo with my blue cardigan sweater and kswiss'. Despite all the homework, and tests, and projects my teachers have given me, this has been the best 4 years of my life. Meeting so many people, going to the mall/movies every weekend, getting ready for 234802934 million dances..blah blah blah. And senior year has just been the nice yummy frosting to top it all off. So many things that I thought that would never happen in a million years happened! Even though I'm not going to the college I was planning to go to, I am happy with my final choice: UC Santa Cruz. I'm going to visit next week... but I have already heard great things about it, AND it's not so far from San Jose! I'm just trying to live my life one day at a time now, because it seems like I'm running out of time! Anyway, one thing that I won't ever forget is from Senior Retreat. I think Mrs. Dueck or Ms. Uhl said it, "If you already know what path you are going to be on 10 years from now, it probably isn't your path..." I don't think those were the exact words, but it was something along those lines. She's right.. things change and I ready and willing to accept anythingggg life has to offer me. I'm just scared now =/

Richard knows how to entertain me...

so chill (11:11:34 pee em): hey did u go on ur senior retreat/
me (11:11:38 pee em): yes
so chill (11:11:43 pee em): did u cry?
so chill (11:11:45 pee em): i did
me (11:11:47 pee em): yupppppp
me (11:11:48 pee em): lots
so chill (11:11:52 pee em): i was almost bawling
so chill (11:12:00 pee em): see they read this book
so chill (11:12:05 pee em): called love you forever
me (11:12:09 pee em): haha oh richard
so chill (11:12:11 pee em): with the mom who sings to her son every night "ill love you forever, ill like you for always, as long as i'm living, my baby you'll be"
so chill (11:12:31 pee em): and every time the guy read it, i bit my teeth harder and harder
me (11:12:32 pee em): are you a changed man again
so chill (11:12:47 pee em): then i got in my room for silent meditation time, and i just bawled
so chill (11:12:55 pee em): like a little girl
so chill (11:14:15 pee em): but ofcourse we all know ill be back to normal in a couple of weeks
me (11:14:59 pee em): haha

Wow, it's been a reallllllly long time since I last updated.. so let's see what I have been up to..... I've been stressing out because of homework, tests, and school shit..... oh HELL WEEK for PCN was last week.. yeah that literally was hell. Friday night was spent practicing until 10pm.. then making costumes til about 3am-ish.... we slept over at Lic's.. and then his mom cooked us a great breakfast. Saturday was PCN day.. went to the gym around 8 or 9am-ish....goood but long show.. hella technical difficulties, but I had so much fun =( I cried about 90 billion times because I was tired, hungry, stressed, missed my stupid boyfriend, and because it was my LAST PCN ever.. I'm gonna hella miss ND and Bell. We went to the after party, but there were some wack people.... so we bounced.. got In N Out... went to Sher's.. and I fell asleep while the whole world was still there. Sher and Good woke me up around 3ish... went home... blah. I am tired... I'll blog later.

i thought that this was funny.

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o eile317 o [9:46 pee em]: hes your bitch
o eile317 o [9:46 pee em]: u pimp
JuLeEnEtTe77 [9:46 pee em]: haha
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Eileen---WORD!

Bad news is that my monthly friend decided to visit on Sunday for about 3 days or so. Good news is that I was able to fight my cravings by going to Krispy Kreme in Union Landing. More good news is that I got into USF, where I wanna go because it's the CITY dammit, but bad news is that it costs $10k more than the other school I wanna go to. Oh, some good news that does not have a bad side is that I PASSED my Senior Service Project with a 4! The highest I could get was a 5, so GO ME! Aww, this just in, some more bad news: my dearest friend Sherilyn might be moving to Sacramento, so if that's the case, that means she's going to UOP with no questions asked, which also means no going to college with me =*(. Some more bad news is that I have 3458340534 different assignments and tests and projects to make up by the end of this week.