I love my new friend at school.
mariposa1002 (7:35:22 PM): let me tell you something....love is such an intense feeling that its hard to sustain it...thats why people experince ups and downs.....im sure he is just going through a downer...just have faith ok...
psych majors for life!
Monday, October 30, 2006
Monday, October 23, 2006
MySpace No More! 1/04 - 10/06
So instead of waking up early to START studying, I logged onto myspace.. browsed a few profiles.. then realized HOW MUCH I HATED IT. I love myspace only because it's an easier way to keep in contact with friends, but there are other means in keeping in touch - phone, AIM, email, or just plain going out! It was only a way for me to post up my pictures from the weekend... send pointless comments to my friends... and take up my homework/study time.
Then I looked at my friends list and realized that I only talked to like 20 people regularly. It's just so superficial to have my 550 friends and not really talk to any of them. I know, I'll probably regret this in a week or so, but right now, I just feel SO relieved! I was a bit hesitant at first.... I just started to delete my pictures, then my blog entries, then all of my friends, then my inbox/outbox. I still didn't feel better, so I just deleted the entire account after a lot of contemplating.
MySpace has caused MOST if not ALL of my major fights with Jonathan and with a few other people here and there. It's just plain drama. I know I could easily just mature and not let it get to me, but I don't think my will power is that strong at this point. As much as people don't want to accept it, myspace HAS become a part of everyday life - a part of this generation and society. People always say, "it's just MySpace," but in today's society, myspace is a pretty big deal. It sounds like a stretch, but it is so true!
I feel like I only know about my friends and what they look like through their myspaces.. well not ALL of them.. but the ones I barely talk to.. and I think that's a little sad. Nevertheless, I reopened an account to start fresh with people I actually talk to and have met more than 5 times. Yeah, I know I'm a hypocrite because I just went on and on and on about deleting my account and how much it sucked only to reopen it again. But I really do feel better because it took a lot of selflessness to erase ALL those friends and ALL those comments and ALL those blogs and ALL those little memories. I didn't think I was going to go through with it, but it was a test for me and I passed!
I also thought about this blog and how there was a big ol' xanga boom and drama here and there. But, this blog is only read by the few who still check blogs and who still remember my link. If anything, this blog is filled with more memories than my myspace.. and I feel like I've neglected it!
I think what pushed me over the edge in deleting my myspace was because I couldn't control getting butthurt over the stupidest shit. Well, of course I could control it.. but the only way I felt was to just get rid of it. I'd get butthurt over Jonathan not approving comments, or people not adding me as a friend when I'd request them or not getting a response after leaving comments! Yup, really stupid dumb little miniscule stuff, but it got to me! But it was mainly because Jonathan had a myspace again and I'd leave him comments and he would never comment back! But then I'd see him commenting other people left and right! I know people feel me on that one! I'd see people that I abhorred so greatly add him and leave him comments. And when I would leave comments, he wouldn't approve them because he said there was no point to them. He only approved a select few, but I think only because he had to approve another person's comment that was left after mine. Ok 95% of the comments we leave for people are pointless... we say hi or reiterate what we did over the weekend. I told him that sorry if my comments aren't full of wisdom! hahahaha.. seee.. I'm getting worked up again. and that's the reason why my account is gone!
Soooo since I feel like Jonathan and I are finally moving our way up out of that shitty hole we've been stuck in for almost a month now, it is only right to do away with the evil that keeps provoking me! hahaha.
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With all of that said, my goal for the week/weekend is to refrain myself from a petty fight with Jonathan. Saturday night I made the mistake in letting my selfishness getting the best of me. When minor girl called, I answered, handed the phone to him, then "accidentally" slid the phone closed. In order for it to not turn into a fight, we just dropped it. I really need to change that about me because it will annihilate our relationship one of these days.
Then I looked at my friends list and realized that I only talked to like 20 people regularly. It's just so superficial to have my 550 friends and not really talk to any of them. I know, I'll probably regret this in a week or so, but right now, I just feel SO relieved! I was a bit hesitant at first.... I just started to delete my pictures, then my blog entries, then all of my friends, then my inbox/outbox. I still didn't feel better, so I just deleted the entire account after a lot of contemplating.
MySpace has caused MOST if not ALL of my major fights with Jonathan and with a few other people here and there. It's just plain drama. I know I could easily just mature and not let it get to me, but I don't think my will power is that strong at this point. As much as people don't want to accept it, myspace HAS become a part of everyday life - a part of this generation and society. People always say, "it's just MySpace," but in today's society, myspace is a pretty big deal. It sounds like a stretch, but it is so true!
I feel like I only know about my friends and what they look like through their myspaces.. well not ALL of them.. but the ones I barely talk to.. and I think that's a little sad. Nevertheless, I reopened an account to start fresh with people I actually talk to and have met more than 5 times. Yeah, I know I'm a hypocrite because I just went on and on and on about deleting my account and how much it sucked only to reopen it again. But I really do feel better because it took a lot of selflessness to erase ALL those friends and ALL those comments and ALL those blogs and ALL those little memories. I didn't think I was going to go through with it, but it was a test for me and I passed!
I also thought about this blog and how there was a big ol' xanga boom and drama here and there. But, this blog is only read by the few who still check blogs and who still remember my link. If anything, this blog is filled with more memories than my myspace.. and I feel like I've neglected it!
I think what pushed me over the edge in deleting my myspace was because I couldn't control getting butthurt over the stupidest shit. Well, of course I could control it.. but the only way I felt was to just get rid of it. I'd get butthurt over Jonathan not approving comments, or people not adding me as a friend when I'd request them or not getting a response after leaving comments! Yup, really stupid dumb little miniscule stuff, but it got to me! But it was mainly because Jonathan had a myspace again and I'd leave him comments and he would never comment back! But then I'd see him commenting other people left and right! I know people feel me on that one! I'd see people that I abhorred so greatly add him and leave him comments. And when I would leave comments, he wouldn't approve them because he said there was no point to them. He only approved a select few, but I think only because he had to approve another person's comment that was left after mine. Ok 95% of the comments we leave for people are pointless... we say hi or reiterate what we did over the weekend. I told him that sorry if my comments aren't full of wisdom! hahahaha.. seee.. I'm getting worked up again. and that's the reason why my account is gone!
Soooo since I feel like Jonathan and I are finally moving our way up out of that shitty hole we've been stuck in for almost a month now, it is only right to do away with the evil that keeps provoking me! hahaha.
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With all of that said, my goal for the week/weekend is to refrain myself from a petty fight with Jonathan. Saturday night I made the mistake in letting my selfishness getting the best of me. When minor girl called, I answered, handed the phone to him, then "accidentally" slid the phone closed. In order for it to not turn into a fight, we just dropped it. I really need to change that about me because it will annihilate our relationship one of these days.
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Another weekend....
Wow.. so the week went by faster than I thought. I was stressed out Monday because of a stupid paper... but the paper wasn't even all that bad. I ended up finishing it up Thursday right before class. Then I realized, omg it's Thursday!
So my weekend sorta began. I was supposed to go and watch the sneak preview of "Marie Antoinette" with Mariel because she had free tickets, butttt I HAD to go and pick up Leanna from her volleyball game.. but I couldn't pick her up early because she HAD to stay for the Varsity game. It was pretty gay but I thought, oh well, I should stay home tonight since I have midterms to prepare for. But what did I do instead? After I picked her up, we went to Costco for Nip/Tuck Season 3. They didn't have it.. so we got some chicken bakes for dinner. Then we went to Walmart... they didn't have it. So we tried Hollywood Video since it was just right there... they had it, but not to sell, only to rent!! By this time, I was already frustrated, but I thought, OK I went to 3 stores already, what's one more? So we went to Circuit City, and they had it... but it was freakin expensive! We went to Costco and Walmart because ONLINE it was cheaper!! Well we bought it anyway because we were dying to find out what happened (since I bought Season 1 and 2 the week before). Sooo.. instead of going out, I decided to stay home and watch Nip/Tuck.
Friday, I woke up bright and early for work and it was Mariel's first day! My favorite Kevin trained her.. then Mariel and I grabbed lunch at this Thai place. I keep forgetting the name. Back to work I went... then the gym... then home. I was planning to go out, butttt the thing got cancelled and no one else was going out.. so I figured I'd stay home again. I know I'm a bum! I was so tired though. Then my manager called me and told me that we had a 730am meeting!! So that's when I knew for sure I had to stay home. For the rest of the night I talked to Jonathan and then I watched Nip/Tuck until I fell asleep.
Saturday, I went to work... was late 5 minutes. blah! Got a little crap for it.. but oh well. Work went by sooo slowwww because it was really slow. Sometimes that's good though. Then, I realized, WHOOHOO it's Saturday! I get to see my boyfriend! I called Jonathan during my break and he was at my house - so he says! I told him I wouldn't be home for another hour so he just went back to his house. After work, I visited my love and spent some qt in the living room! Geez I missed him! Then we went back to my house, changed, and headed to the gym. We were there for an hour and a half... and I realize only now how much we worked out! I'm actually sore! Jonathan went to get a hair cut, and then we went back to my house, showered, got ready, and went back to his house for dinner with his family. We couldn't think of anything to do, so we visited Ron.. stayed at his house for a bit. Jonathan and I kinda had a little mishap. I was a little out of it because of Ron and what we always do when we're with Ron! haha. Anyway, this girl that I am not too fond of called Jonathan, I picked up, said hello, she asked for Jonathan, handed the phone to him, and the phone slid closed! whoops! haha oh well. Blah she is so annoying! She's freakin 17 years old, closer to my sister's age, tried getting on Jeremy, and now she thinks she's bff with Jonathan! It's ok... we didn't talk about the mishap any further because we didn't want to make a fight out of it. I ended up falling asleep on the couch until they woke me up. We were supposed to go downtown or something, but Jonathan decided he wasn't up for a crazy night since he had to drive back to SF for work. So we went to Joel's house instead since he was having a little get together. Again, I KOed on the futon until Lisa and Cindy and Therese and Co. showed up! I was still soooooo exhausted! Finally, we decided to call it a night. We dropped Ron off.. then Jonathan dropped me off. He walked me inside, said our good nights, and then I went to sleep. I woke up at 4am to Jonathan's call telling me he just arrived in SF! Poor baby... and now he is at work.
Alright...... I am soooo not looking forward to Tuesday... but thank goodness it's at the beginning of the week so my entire week isn't hell! I can't wait until the weekend again not only because it's bf/gf time but because of Halloween! I just wanna wear my costume. I think I'm gonna call in sick for work tomorrow so I can just rest today, prep my study guides then studay all day tomorrow for my 2 midterms. Yeah.. that sounds good to me.
So my weekend sorta began. I was supposed to go and watch the sneak preview of "Marie Antoinette" with Mariel because she had free tickets, butttt I HAD to go and pick up Leanna from her volleyball game.. but I couldn't pick her up early because she HAD to stay for the Varsity game. It was pretty gay but I thought, oh well, I should stay home tonight since I have midterms to prepare for. But what did I do instead? After I picked her up, we went to Costco for Nip/Tuck Season 3. They didn't have it.. so we got some chicken bakes for dinner. Then we went to Walmart... they didn't have it. So we tried Hollywood Video since it was just right there... they had it, but not to sell, only to rent!! By this time, I was already frustrated, but I thought, OK I went to 3 stores already, what's one more? So we went to Circuit City, and they had it... but it was freakin expensive! We went to Costco and Walmart because ONLINE it was cheaper!! Well we bought it anyway because we were dying to find out what happened (since I bought Season 1 and 2 the week before). Sooo.. instead of going out, I decided to stay home and watch Nip/Tuck.
Friday, I woke up bright and early for work and it was Mariel's first day! My favorite Kevin trained her.. then Mariel and I grabbed lunch at this Thai place. I keep forgetting the name. Back to work I went... then the gym... then home. I was planning to go out, butttt the thing got cancelled and no one else was going out.. so I figured I'd stay home again. I know I'm a bum! I was so tired though. Then my manager called me and told me that we had a 730am meeting!! So that's when I knew for sure I had to stay home. For the rest of the night I talked to Jonathan and then I watched Nip/Tuck until I fell asleep.
Saturday, I went to work... was late 5 minutes. blah! Got a little crap for it.. but oh well. Work went by sooo slowwww because it was really slow. Sometimes that's good though. Then, I realized, WHOOHOO it's Saturday! I get to see my boyfriend! I called Jonathan during my break and he was at my house - so he says! I told him I wouldn't be home for another hour so he just went back to his house. After work, I visited my love and spent some qt in the living room! Geez I missed him! Then we went back to my house, changed, and headed to the gym. We were there for an hour and a half... and I realize only now how much we worked out! I'm actually sore! Jonathan went to get a hair cut, and then we went back to my house, showered, got ready, and went back to his house for dinner with his family. We couldn't think of anything to do, so we visited Ron.. stayed at his house for a bit. Jonathan and I kinda had a little mishap. I was a little out of it because of Ron and what we always do when we're with Ron! haha. Anyway, this girl that I am not too fond of called Jonathan, I picked up, said hello, she asked for Jonathan, handed the phone to him, and the phone slid closed! whoops! haha oh well. Blah she is so annoying! She's freakin 17 years old, closer to my sister's age, tried getting on Jeremy, and now she thinks she's bff with Jonathan! It's ok... we didn't talk about the mishap any further because we didn't want to make a fight out of it. I ended up falling asleep on the couch until they woke me up. We were supposed to go downtown or something, but Jonathan decided he wasn't up for a crazy night since he had to drive back to SF for work. So we went to Joel's house instead since he was having a little get together. Again, I KOed on the futon until Lisa and Cindy and Therese and Co. showed up! I was still soooooo exhausted! Finally, we decided to call it a night. We dropped Ron off.. then Jonathan dropped me off. He walked me inside, said our good nights, and then I went to sleep. I woke up at 4am to Jonathan's call telling me he just arrived in SF! Poor baby... and now he is at work.
Alright...... I am soooo not looking forward to Tuesday... but thank goodness it's at the beginning of the week so my entire week isn't hell! I can't wait until the weekend again not only because it's bf/gf time but because of Halloween! I just wanna wear my costume. I think I'm gonna call in sick for work tomorrow so I can just rest today, prep my study guides then studay all day tomorrow for my 2 midterms. Yeah.. that sounds good to me.
Monday, October 16, 2006
monday blues
Ok I really don't have the blues but it's monday again =( Another longgg week until the weekend hits. But I had a pretty good weekend. Thursday I slept early and missed a bunch of calls to go out.. oh well. It was good sleep. Friday, went to school and came home to a bunch of my packages that I ordered online - Forever stuff and nip/tuck dvds. I hit the gym with my mom for about an hour then got home and got ready to go to Lisa's. The way to palo alto was a journey, but good thing I had my GPS on my phone to guide us when we didn't listen to it! I wish we sake bombed.. but it's ok. Despite all the dumb crap that happened, I had lots of fun at F&A's with Lisa and Cindy. Saturday I woke up excited when I went for work because Saturdays are Jonathan days. Buttttt I was bummed out because when I was calling him the night before, I couldn't get a hold of him. When I finally did get a hold of him that morning, he told me he had to help Jay move stuff. He said he would be done by 3, but that didn't happen. He didn't get to my house til 8. To top it off, the first thing he told me that morning is that he left his phone in some girl's car because he was hella drunk. NOT the first thing I want to hear from my boyfriend that I haven't really spoken to or seen in a week! But it wasn't just a girl.. she's an old friend from high school... and I'm not really trippin about that at all.. I'm just butt hurt that he didn't have the couresty to call. So anyway, by the time he showed up, I was bummed because the Saturday didn't go how I expected, but I guess it was ok. We just spent time with each other like some oldies watching T.V. on a Saturday night. But then he told me that he wasn't staying in San Jose for the night because he had to take his cousin back to SF because he was his only ride! So, not only did our Saturday start late, but it had to end early. After, we went to pick up his phone in Fremont, and I asked him what we were going to do after... he kept saying he didn't know.. whatever I wanted to do. Then I suggested movies, grab dessert, bowling, blah blah and he said no to everything! Grr... it's like.. don't tell me it's up to me if you don't want to do anything! So things were tense in the car again but when we got home, he stayed for a while... watched nip/tuck and he was off to the city for another week =(
I'm gonna be strong this week... since it's his midterm week and I have a stupid paper due. And by Saturday, we can make up for the "ok" Saturday we had together. I need to learn how to just let things go and not let them irritate me. Especially the little things. We only have one day a week together so we need to start making the most of it instead of bickering about petty shit! I really don't want to end up hating him.
P.S. MYSPACE RUINS LIVES! I WISH HE DIDN'T REOPEN HIS AGAIN!!!!!!!!
I'm gonna be strong this week... since it's his midterm week and I have a stupid paper due. And by Saturday, we can make up for the "ok" Saturday we had together. I need to learn how to just let things go and not let them irritate me. Especially the little things. We only have one day a week together so we need to start making the most of it instead of bickering about petty shit! I really don't want to end up hating him.
P.S. MYSPACE RUINS LIVES! I WISH HE DIDN'T REOPEN HIS AGAIN!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
I <3 Wednesdays
I finally have a day off in the middle of the week and I love it! I'm supposed to today to catch up on errands (which I already did) and catch up on homework (which I am planning to do and will HOPEFULLY do). Anyway, yesterday in Psychology, I learned that you can never base a person's personality and/or behavior based on the family they came from because yes, even if they are living under the same roof with the same parents, you both still grow up differently. For example, my sister and I grew up together... but when I was 10, I still had my mom and my dad around and when she was 10, she had my mom and her blahhh ex-husband around. Each person's behavior is based on their own unique family experience and the social environment surrounding them. And that is all I wanted to share =)
On another note, I was on the phone with you this morning, Lisa... and I shouldn't have spoken too soon. I was weighed today and I have officially gained 20 lbs since high school! OMG! I'm gonna beg my mom to take me to the gym today! And I'll try to go to the gym for at least an hour every day. And if I miss a day, I'll go for 2 hours. That sounds like a really good plan! Fucking shit! I feel like a fat ass!!!!!!
Ok... and now I am reallllllllly irritated because I logged onto something and blah!!!!!! It's not for my eyes but still. Well I thought it was for my eyes. Whatever.
On another note, I was on the phone with you this morning, Lisa... and I shouldn't have spoken too soon. I was weighed today and I have officially gained 20 lbs since high school! OMG! I'm gonna beg my mom to take me to the gym today! And I'll try to go to the gym for at least an hour every day. And if I miss a day, I'll go for 2 hours. That sounds like a really good plan! Fucking shit! I feel like a fat ass!!!!!!
Ok... and now I am reallllllllly irritated because I logged onto something and blah!!!!!! It's not for my eyes but still. Well I thought it was for my eyes. Whatever.
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Rollercoaster!
Everything with Jonathan has been up and down and up and down... but I think we've finally come to an agreement: The week (M-F) is for school and work only, and the weekend (F-Sun) is family and/or Jonathan/Jule time. So that means no calling each other to bug during the week to say "what are you doing? what did you do today? who are you with?" blah blah blah. We decided that we fight more over the phone than in person -- so why not eliminate the thing that's causing the commotion? Also, doing this actually gives us time to miss each other instead of being irritated by the time we do see each other. I don't think it'll be that hard for me since he's in the city all week while I'm at work/school. But I think I'll call him every night to say good night because he still is my boyfriend.
Anyway, this weekend was really kick back for me compared to last weekend.
Starting from LAST WEEKEND:
Thursday - I had school, "discussed" with Jonathan -- blah-est part of my day/week/maybe even month, went home from school early (I know I already cut class and it was only the first full week), slept, went to D&B's with Sheila and Mariel, drank lots and lots, Taste with Henessey and Sheila, then Denny's parking lot with Sheila, Mariel, John, Larry, Nathan, and their friend Isaiah. Nathan dropped us back at Sheila's car and we took the side streets home from Milpitas to my house. We were being emo while listening to slow jams and talking about boys.. hahha. I even made them cry when I told them Jonathan and I were on a break -- but I am glad things with us are better now.
Friday - I had work -- freakin hungoverrrr -- so Kevin my bff at work brought me some Gatorade, went home and relaxed, figured I wasn't going to go out since it was already late, but then Villiard told me he'd come and get me to go to Armin's. Sooo Villiard came with Neiman and Brian to pick me up, but we ended up going to this bar called Palms or something in Milpitas because there was this hip hop show going on. The bouncer guy was still charging people the $5 cover, but when he told us they were closing in 20 minutes, we asked for our money back.. hhaha.. so he gave it to us but let us go in the bar anyway! Villiard was also able to walk right in so phew. After taking a crapload of shots, we headed to Armin's for his bday. We were all just chillin in the backyard talking with everyone.
Saturday - I had work (stupid work) -- freakin hungover again, rushed home because Mariel said she was coming to get me around 3 to leave for Stockton for Isaiah's fight thing. Well, I pretty much rushed for nothing because we didn't end up leaving until 5. We went to Chris Dumlao's to meet with everyone, and in Mariel's car was John, Nathan, Larry, Mariel, and me. I slept in the back with Larry and John pretty much the whole way there. The fight was pretty cool. It's full contact fighting, but not UFC. Just a bunch of fight clubs that fight against each other for belts. Isaiah's fight lasted ike 10 seconds, literally. The guy threw in the towel.. gayyyy. So after me having to use the freakin port-a-potty, paying $30 for the ticket, sitting in an outside arenda where it was helllla cold, and traveling for an hour or so..... the fight was only 10 seconds!! Oh well. So the guys decided they wanted to go to Jackson.. and we did. Out of the 10+ of us playing, I was the only one that won. Total losses were $1400.00 and total winnings were $100.00 with the $100.00 being mine. We didn't leave Jackson until 4 or 5am because Nathan was determined to get his money back... but he didn't! It's ok, I <3 blackjack! John drove home and I snuggled in the back with Nathan and Larry.. hahha jk. For the first hour, I stayed up and Nathan and I sang acapella karaoke to Mariel and John.. haha. We were all so delirious from NO sleep. Then I knocked out because Larry was already snoring really loud. Before I knew it... Larry, Nathan, and I were snoring monsters in the back. I had a good ass nap though. I got home at 7am and KO-ed!
Sunday - I woke up for a while to eat breakfast and then I went back to sleep. I woke up to Jonathan's call -- I was happy and surprised because I didn't talk to him the entire weekend. But he just called to tell me he was going to pick me up soon for the John Mayer and Sheryl Crow concert. Well when he says soon it means 2 or 3 hours.. and I was right! We met up with Mike, Nate, Nate's gf Julie, Jenny, JR, and Joel at Joel's house.. then we tailgated to Subway and then to Shoreline. I had a good time with Jonathan because I missed him... and I'm pretty sure he missed me too. The concert was OK I guess.. only because he didn't sing my favorite, "Your Body is Wonderland." Sheryl Crow was good too since she sang "The First Cut is the Deepest". Strangely enough, before John Mayer sang his second song, he said, "This song is about two people coming to the end of their relationship" and boy did I cryyyyy. I hid it though because I didn't want anyone to see. Anyway... after that song, everything else was good. Jonathan and I were laying on the lawn cuddling under a blanket with the stars above us listening to John Mayer live. It was great! We got into a little scuffle when we got home about my camera because he needed it and I told him to get it that night instead of the morning and blah blah blah. I hate it when we bicker after having a good night. I swear, that's why we are restricting phone calls after having a good day/night together.
Monday - Long day at work... the situation with Jonathan and I finally hit me and I was pretty much down the whole day. I think I talked to him on the phone again that night and I said how I was going to go to SF to get my camera for the weekend -- yes, just an excuse to see him.
Tuesday - The morning started off fine. I was excited because I was going to see him and maybe patch things up. I went online, got a "Ding" from Southwest with $39 flights to Vegas. I IMed Jonathan with excitement and then he started saying that it's a bad idea.... and I said what? And he said we shouldn't plan things together anymore. That really hurt me but I had to get ready for school. So I talked to him the ENTIRE drive from San Jose to Santa Cruz and for an hour more about a bunch of crap. He said not to go to SF anymore, but I told him ok the camera thing is kind of an excuse, but I really just want to see how it's been for you over there.. to see how you've been living your life there for the past few weeks. He said.. well since you said that, come, I'll show you around and we'll talk. The school day dragged on sooooooo slowly and I don't think I paid attention at all. So I technically missed 2 days of class which is a week's worth of information. OH WELL. The drive to SF wasn't too bad from SC. Very light traffic. I already blogged about this day I think so just look at my post below. But things ended on a VERY GOOD NOTE! I felt like I was in middle school again with a new crush... seriously.
Wednesday - back to San Jose and bummed around, went to Uncle Charlie's to get my car, then homework/studied with my sis on the dining table.
Thursday - my longggggggggggg day at school! 830am to 545pm. I survived!! I was sooo tempted to drive home too during my break.. but I didn't! I am so proud of myself! Surprisingly, I didn't go out and stayed home with my mommy and sissy.
Friday - went to work NOT hungover and it went by realllly quickly. Jonathan and I made plans to go out, but he had to stay in SF to finish a project. Again, stupid phone just made us irritated with each other and we got into another scuffle.. blah!
Yesterday - work again and not hungover again, and surprisingly got a call from him. He said he'd be at my house at 5 so we could buy Jen's gift and then drive to the city for her dinner. But I went to Chili's with my coworkers because I knew he would lag. I was right.. he didn't get to my place until 630. We left my house around 7ish, went to Urban to buy Jen's gift, then drove to the city. We finally had the talk we were supposed to have Tuesday night/Wednesday morning and that's where we came to our agreement of not talking to each other during the week and saving the weekend for us. Jen's dinner was fun at this Filipino restaurant called Solita's. I just love his cousins. There was this band and a DJ and a bar. Fun times. On the drive home we had high times.. haha, went home, chilled for a bit, then called it a night.
Today - I was in my PJs all day until I had to get ready for church. I spent the whole morning trying to figure out how to download TV episodes, more specifically, last week's episode of Nip/Tuck and I figured it out! Church then home, cleaned my room, and I have been working on this blog entry for a very long time now! I think I'll call the bf tonight to say good night and then our first school/work week of no talking will begin! We'll see how that goes. Good I hope!
Phew. I miss blogging like that. I'll try to do it more often since Lisa is my only reader and she reads everything down to the very last sentence. hahah I <3 you! See you on Thursday/Friday!
<3, Jule
Anyway, this weekend was really kick back for me compared to last weekend.
Starting from LAST WEEKEND:
Thursday - I had school, "discussed" with Jonathan -- blah-est part of my day/week/maybe even month, went home from school early (I know I already cut class and it was only the first full week), slept, went to D&B's with Sheila and Mariel, drank lots and lots, Taste with Henessey and Sheila, then Denny's parking lot with Sheila, Mariel, John, Larry, Nathan, and their friend Isaiah. Nathan dropped us back at Sheila's car and we took the side streets home from Milpitas to my house. We were being emo while listening to slow jams and talking about boys.. hahha. I even made them cry when I told them Jonathan and I were on a break -- but I am glad things with us are better now.
Friday - I had work -- freakin hungoverrrr -- so Kevin my bff at work brought me some Gatorade, went home and relaxed, figured I wasn't going to go out since it was already late, but then Villiard told me he'd come and get me to go to Armin's. Sooo Villiard came with Neiman and Brian to pick me up, but we ended up going to this bar called Palms or something in Milpitas because there was this hip hop show going on. The bouncer guy was still charging people the $5 cover, but when he told us they were closing in 20 minutes, we asked for our money back.. hhaha.. so he gave it to us but let us go in the bar anyway! Villiard was also able to walk right in so phew. After taking a crapload of shots, we headed to Armin's for his bday. We were all just chillin in the backyard talking with everyone.
Saturday - I had work (stupid work) -- freakin hungover again, rushed home because Mariel said she was coming to get me around 3 to leave for Stockton for Isaiah's fight thing. Well, I pretty much rushed for nothing because we didn't end up leaving until 5. We went to Chris Dumlao's to meet with everyone, and in Mariel's car was John, Nathan, Larry, Mariel, and me. I slept in the back with Larry and John pretty much the whole way there. The fight was pretty cool. It's full contact fighting, but not UFC. Just a bunch of fight clubs that fight against each other for belts. Isaiah's fight lasted ike 10 seconds, literally. The guy threw in the towel.. gayyyy. So after me having to use the freakin port-a-potty, paying $30 for the ticket, sitting in an outside arenda where it was helllla cold, and traveling for an hour or so..... the fight was only 10 seconds!! Oh well. So the guys decided they wanted to go to Jackson.. and we did. Out of the 10+ of us playing, I was the only one that won. Total losses were $1400.00 and total winnings were $100.00 with the $100.00 being mine. We didn't leave Jackson until 4 or 5am because Nathan was determined to get his money back... but he didn't! It's ok, I <3 blackjack! John drove home and I snuggled in the back with Nathan and Larry.. hahha jk. For the first hour, I stayed up and Nathan and I sang acapella karaoke to Mariel and John.. haha. We were all so delirious from NO sleep. Then I knocked out because Larry was already snoring really loud. Before I knew it... Larry, Nathan, and I were snoring monsters in the back. I had a good ass nap though. I got home at 7am and KO-ed!
Sunday - I woke up for a while to eat breakfast and then I went back to sleep. I woke up to Jonathan's call -- I was happy and surprised because I didn't talk to him the entire weekend. But he just called to tell me he was going to pick me up soon for the John Mayer and Sheryl Crow concert. Well when he says soon it means 2 or 3 hours.. and I was right! We met up with Mike, Nate, Nate's gf Julie, Jenny, JR, and Joel at Joel's house.. then we tailgated to Subway and then to Shoreline. I had a good time with Jonathan because I missed him... and I'm pretty sure he missed me too. The concert was OK I guess.. only because he didn't sing my favorite, "Your Body is Wonderland." Sheryl Crow was good too since she sang "The First Cut is the Deepest". Strangely enough, before John Mayer sang his second song, he said, "This song is about two people coming to the end of their relationship" and boy did I cryyyyy. I hid it though because I didn't want anyone to see. Anyway... after that song, everything else was good. Jonathan and I were laying on the lawn cuddling under a blanket with the stars above us listening to John Mayer live. It was great! We got into a little scuffle when we got home about my camera because he needed it and I told him to get it that night instead of the morning and blah blah blah. I hate it when we bicker after having a good night. I swear, that's why we are restricting phone calls after having a good day/night together.
Monday - Long day at work... the situation with Jonathan and I finally hit me and I was pretty much down the whole day. I think I talked to him on the phone again that night and I said how I was going to go to SF to get my camera for the weekend -- yes, just an excuse to see him.
Tuesday - The morning started off fine. I was excited because I was going to see him and maybe patch things up. I went online, got a "Ding" from Southwest with $39 flights to Vegas. I IMed Jonathan with excitement and then he started saying that it's a bad idea.... and I said what? And he said we shouldn't plan things together anymore. That really hurt me but I had to get ready for school. So I talked to him the ENTIRE drive from San Jose to Santa Cruz and for an hour more about a bunch of crap. He said not to go to SF anymore, but I told him ok the camera thing is kind of an excuse, but I really just want to see how it's been for you over there.. to see how you've been living your life there for the past few weeks. He said.. well since you said that, come, I'll show you around and we'll talk. The school day dragged on sooooooo slowly and I don't think I paid attention at all. So I technically missed 2 days of class which is a week's worth of information. OH WELL. The drive to SF wasn't too bad from SC. Very light traffic. I already blogged about this day I think so just look at my post below. But things ended on a VERY GOOD NOTE! I felt like I was in middle school again with a new crush... seriously.
Wednesday - back to San Jose and bummed around, went to Uncle Charlie's to get my car, then homework/studied with my sis on the dining table.
Thursday - my longggggggggggg day at school! 830am to 545pm. I survived!! I was sooo tempted to drive home too during my break.. but I didn't! I am so proud of myself! Surprisingly, I didn't go out and stayed home with my mommy and sissy.
Friday - went to work NOT hungover and it went by realllly quickly. Jonathan and I made plans to go out, but he had to stay in SF to finish a project. Again, stupid phone just made us irritated with each other and we got into another scuffle.. blah!
Yesterday - work again and not hungover again, and surprisingly got a call from him. He said he'd be at my house at 5 so we could buy Jen's gift and then drive to the city for her dinner. But I went to Chili's with my coworkers because I knew he would lag. I was right.. he didn't get to my place until 630. We left my house around 7ish, went to Urban to buy Jen's gift, then drove to the city. We finally had the talk we were supposed to have Tuesday night/Wednesday morning and that's where we came to our agreement of not talking to each other during the week and saving the weekend for us. Jen's dinner was fun at this Filipino restaurant called Solita's. I just love his cousins. There was this band and a DJ and a bar. Fun times. On the drive home we had high times.. haha, went home, chilled for a bit, then called it a night.
Today - I was in my PJs all day until I had to get ready for church. I spent the whole morning trying to figure out how to download TV episodes, more specifically, last week's episode of Nip/Tuck and I figured it out! Church then home, cleaned my room, and I have been working on this blog entry for a very long time now! I think I'll call the bf tonight to say good night and then our first school/work week of no talking will begin! We'll see how that goes. Good I hope!
Phew. I miss blogging like that. I'll try to do it more often since Lisa is my only reader and she reads everything down to the very last sentence. hahah I <3 you! See you on Thursday/Friday!
<3, Jule
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
City Love
So after school yesterday, I drove to San Francisco and visit him. We were both kinda hesitant because it's been a longgg time since we've had our own time together (seriously I can't even remember the last time)... and we had just kinda established our "break." It was originally because I wanted my camera, but we both knew it was an excuse. I told him that I just really wanted to see how he's been living his life over there--and he said that that sounds better and he would take me around.
The drive was long, but it went by quick just knowing I was going to see him. I called him and told him I was outside... parking in SF sucks ass! So after playing with Maddox and hanging around Dominic's place (where he's been staying) we WALKED to this sushi place. The most expensive sushi dish at the sushi bar was $1.95!!! So I grabbed whatever I wanted to try.. haha. Plus, I was hungry from a long day at work. We also tried some warm sake--a first time for both of us. Man, I only had two "shots", and I was feelin it already. But after a while the slight buzz went away. I guess from all the sushi I had to eat.
We walked back and saw this lady feeding some feral cats. They were soooo cute and friendly . She told us that there are a few of them who feed the cats each night who just chill on this hill thing near someone's house. So we walked some more back to Dom's and I was about to head home even though I didn't want to since it was getting late and I had a long drive ahead of me. He told me to just come inside for a while. We started watching last week's episode of Nip/Tuck on his laptop since Dom doesn't have cable there, and he saw how tired I was getting. He knew I couldn't/wouldn't/shouldn't drive that long way home at night after walking and sake and a long day at school... so he told me to just stay the night. It was something I wanted to hear, but again, I was scared. I began to get confused again, but I changed into his sweats and let it flow...
We were laying down in Dom's living room while I was looking at his sketchbook for one of his classes. Very cute. He also showed me more of his projects. Even cuter. Then I was watching him work on this helicopter project--I wish I had his homework! It's fun but not easy! Watching him work on this project made me realize, "Damn. This art stuff is hard!" I totally underestimated the amount of time it takes because I thought art = easy, but nope. Earlier that night, he also showed me the bus he takes to school and work. He doesn't ever have to drive his car which is kinda good but bad because it takes longer. When he was done with his project, I was already dozing off behind him. He put on "V for Vendetta" and I just slept. I woke up when he was done watching, we snuggled, and everything felt the same--maybe even better.
Morning came and the bright sun was shining through the big living room windows. We were both lazy to get up, but he had class to go to and I had home to go to. Finally, we got up and I dropped him off at his class. We kissed "good night" (not good bye) and my fun ride home singing to slow jams by myself to my ipod began.
I've been home for 7 hours now and I can't stop thinking about him. I feel like I'm a teenager again with a new crush. I guess I'm just really happy because I got my man back. Myself yesterday was a total wreck and now--good. I know I was saying how we both needed a break, but we're already so far from each other (well not really that far), and I don't see why we can't still keep doing our own thing and being with each other when we have the time. Not being 5 minutes away from each other anymore is the true test. No more being too dependent on the other. Actually, going and being in San Francisco, I saw what he had to do first hand. No more of me assuming that he's just slacking off doing stupid stuff. He just stays at Dom's place all day, work, and homework. Stupid me for not trusting him.. but sometimes you just have to see for yourself. He even texted me while I was in class to make sure I was home. He has his key again. He still has my camera (which was the initial reason why I went there). It is not over. I told him he won't regret it. We love each other and that's all that matters. Once my car situation is "fixed", there is no doubt that I am going to visit him more often. Especially when he finally finds a place!
I love you, Jonathan.
The drive was long, but it went by quick just knowing I was going to see him. I called him and told him I was outside... parking in SF sucks ass! So after playing with Maddox and hanging around Dominic's place (where he's been staying) we WALKED to this sushi place. The most expensive sushi dish at the sushi bar was $1.95!!! So I grabbed whatever I wanted to try.. haha. Plus, I was hungry from a long day at work. We also tried some warm sake--a first time for both of us. Man, I only had two "shots", and I was feelin it already. But after a while the slight buzz went away. I guess from all the sushi I had to eat.
We walked back and saw this lady feeding some feral cats. They were soooo cute and friendly . She told us that there are a few of them who feed the cats each night who just chill on this hill thing near someone's house. So we walked some more back to Dom's and I was about to head home even though I didn't want to since it was getting late and I had a long drive ahead of me. He told me to just come inside for a while. We started watching last week's episode of Nip/Tuck on his laptop since Dom doesn't have cable there, and he saw how tired I was getting. He knew I couldn't/wouldn't/shouldn't drive that long way home at night after walking and sake and a long day at school... so he told me to just stay the night. It was something I wanted to hear, but again, I was scared. I began to get confused again, but I changed into his sweats and let it flow...
We were laying down in Dom's living room while I was looking at his sketchbook for one of his classes. Very cute. He also showed me more of his projects. Even cuter. Then I was watching him work on this helicopter project--I wish I had his homework! It's fun but not easy! Watching him work on this project made me realize, "Damn. This art stuff is hard!" I totally underestimated the amount of time it takes because I thought art = easy, but nope. Earlier that night, he also showed me the bus he takes to school and work. He doesn't ever have to drive his car which is kinda good but bad because it takes longer. When he was done with his project, I was already dozing off behind him. He put on "V for Vendetta" and I just slept. I woke up when he was done watching, we snuggled, and everything felt the same--maybe even better.
Morning came and the bright sun was shining through the big living room windows. We were both lazy to get up, but he had class to go to and I had home to go to. Finally, we got up and I dropped him off at his class. We kissed "good night" (not good bye) and my fun ride home singing to slow jams by myself to my ipod began.
I've been home for 7 hours now and I can't stop thinking about him. I feel like I'm a teenager again with a new crush. I guess I'm just really happy because I got my man back. Myself yesterday was a total wreck and now--good. I know I was saying how we both needed a break, but we're already so far from each other (well not really that far), and I don't see why we can't still keep doing our own thing and being with each other when we have the time. Not being 5 minutes away from each other anymore is the true test. No more being too dependent on the other. Actually, going and being in San Francisco, I saw what he had to do first hand. No more of me assuming that he's just slacking off doing stupid stuff. He just stays at Dom's place all day, work, and homework. Stupid me for not trusting him.. but sometimes you just have to see for yourself. He even texted me while I was in class to make sure I was home. He has his key again. He still has my camera (which was the initial reason why I went there). It is not over. I told him he won't regret it. We love each other and that's all that matters. Once my car situation is "fixed", there is no doubt that I am going to visit him more often. Especially when he finally finds a place!
I love you, Jonathan.