Yesterday was my very first day of classes for the spring quarter! Writing 1, History of Jazz, and then Female Physiology in that order. They're regular I guess. At least I'm not freaking out just yet. Mommy picked me up after my last class in SC, picked up Leanna at Cal-Skate, then went to my cousins' house to do the novena again. It was good seeing family again. Jonathan came over, then Jenna tells me that they were heading to Cache Creek.. so Jonathan and I spontaneously decide to go and pick up Joshie. We met up with Jenna, Daryl, Blanco, Jerrold, and their irvine friend Kevin around 1am. First, Jonathan and I got Cache Club cards.. even though we can't use them after April 5th because they're upping the age to 21. Then, we played with the slot machines and I lost $9. Well, I was up for a while.. but then I kept trying and I ended up losing.. oh well! Jonathan won $17 from a slot machine. Hmm... then we went to a Black Jack table where Jenna and Joshie were playing, so Jonathan joins. Joshie was up $70 and Jonathan was up $20 or something.. they both end up losing. Jenna lost $10 and Daryl won $40 by just putting a QUARTER into the video poker thing.. lucky duck. By the end of the night, Jonathan was down $40.. so he withdrew $20 and played WAR.. yeah WAR, that childhood game we all love. He ended up winning $20, so he was only down $20. He was getting addicted, and Joshie kept checking his wallet for money.. they were both addicted at this point.. so it was time to leave. So we lefrt at 4am, got home around 6am this morning.. then Jonathan and I crashed til about 1230. I'm so glad that my class today doesn't start until next week! So I am here in lovely San Jose until tomorrow morning.

So I guess this year's spring break went well. It had its ups and downs. Monday I practically caught up with sleep the entire day because I had "jet lag" from our NY trip.. and Diana visited me that day too with Villiard. Tuesday I unpacked my crap, cleaned around the house and hung out with Jonathan. Wednesday, I believe I went shopping and took advantage of my employee discount at Hollister. Thursday, I hung out with Genevieve, Jenn, Jenna, Diana, Dianne, Anne, Angela, and Andrea (all the names match) and shopped in SF at Urban Outfitters and Gap and stuff.. then we all visited Fel at her house.. cute place! Then Jenna, Jonathan, and I headed over to Rich's place where Daryl, Benny, Joshie, and Joshie's twin cousins Peter and Paul were playing Texas Holdem.. so Jonathan joined while Jenna and I ate all the NON moldy food we could find (which were just nuts). Friday I went to VF to pick up my paycheck, but the Fed Ex guy wasn't there yet.. I hung out with Mic, Lisa, and Chris for a while too while waiting.. then Jonathan and I met up with Jeremy and I watched those two at the driving range.. then they dropped me off at VF again bc I was called to work and those two got in trouble at cinnabon for stealing receipts.. after work the three of us watched "Jersey Girl" along with Jeremy's friend Angela. Saturday Jonathan had work.. I went with my mom and granda to visit an aunt in santa clara, then worked again to cover for Mic... got a really bad stomach ache that night so went straight to bed. Sunday, went to Target to get school supplies.. got pizza.. dropped my sister off.. went on a date with the boyfriend: watched a sneak preview of "The Prince and Me".. cute chick flick.. then went to the driving range where he tried to teach me the "form" of a golfer.. went to work AGAIN, but Mic was there, twas fun. This morning my mom called me with the news, and I haven't been able to sleep since. I went to return/exchange stuff at Valley Fair and Oakridge with the bf.. picked up sister.. Jonathan left.. then sister and I went with our mom to visit our cousins. It was great seeing my dad's side of the family again, especially my dad. I love him so much, and I know now not to take him for granted.

It's so amazing how life can change dramatically in a split second. I'm not talking about my life here.. I mean it changes little by little each day, but not one big dramatic change. My mom called me at 8am this morning to tell me the news. I was speechless, I didn't think she was talking about someone I actually knew, and then I cried. I cried because I was thinking about my 3 cousins, I was crying because I was thinking about my own mom and what I would do in that situation, I was crying because it was TOTALLY unexpected, I was crying because I knew her too, she was family. It's funny how a single moment like this can change your perception of everything around you. Like seriously this time, I need to let go of all this negativity that has been drowning me lately. I need to be grateful of the things that have been offered to me. I have great grandparents that would lose sleep over me, I have a mom that I can tell ANYTHING to, and I really mean anything, I have a sister.. that's it.. no jk, she's a great sister too, I have magnificent cousins that give me this sense of "life" everytime I'm around them, my aunts and uncles.. I can't even get started, my childhood friends that will be there for me no matter what, my dearest Jonathan who would cut off an arm for me, and I even have my dad, who I don't speak to or see often, but he's there for me and he loves me and I love him. Like seriously, I don't know why I let this "crap" affect me.. because when you think about it.. some of the things that I consider "crap" are nothing at all.. If the crap were to go away, I'd still be the same. I'm probably not making any sense right now.. but whatever. When a person dies, you don't think about all the "crap" they had or all the other stuff, you think about how good of a person they were. The greater they were, the harder I cry.

My dearests Neneng, PJ, Brian, and Uncle Boy... be strong. To my Auntie Ellen, rest in peace and watch over this family.

Back from Washington DC and New York. Twas fun with Jonathan, Jeremy, Hansen, Iliana, Ces, Narciso, and Nate.

Wednesday night we left Oakland at 1120pm and arrived Thursday at 715am Washington DC time. At the oakland airport, Jonathan and I found a Ukelele and watched Friends to kill time. The plane ride was regular.. I slept for about 2 out of 6 hours. Hansen picked us up about an hour late at DC.. and I was tired as hell. We checked into the hotel, got some beauty rest, auntie Delia picked us up, took us to The Catholic University of America to pick up Hansen, visited the church there (very beautiful), then went sight seeing. We saw the White House, Lincoln Memorial, Jefferson Memorial, that really tall building (I forgot the name), Vietnam War Memorial, and also stopped at the Union Train Station to eat lunch at Johnny Rockets. We did some more sight seeing, then later that night, Hansen's parents treated us out to dinner at Rio Grande, this mexican restaurant kinda like Chevy's. They told the waitors that it was my birthday, so they brought me some flaun with a candle in it and sang happy birthday really loud. Jer started getting all loud, so by the end of the song, the entire restaurant sang along.. it was great. After that we all went back to the hotel to rest some more, but we got bored, so we joined Hansen when he was dropping Iliana off at their dorms. We just hung out there until we were tired. Lisa called me right at 12am (eastern time) to greet me, even though it was only 9pm here. It felt kinda cool to be turning 19 3 hours earlier. Ok anyway, we went back to the hotel and slept.

Friday morning (my birthday!), I woke up at around 430am because we had a bus ride to New York at 645am, but it took 30 minutes to get there and we had to be there 30 minutes early. Anyway, after the taxi ride, and the longgg cold wait for the stupid bus.. it gets there. Nate was having a problem with his ticket bc he forgot to print it out, and blah blah I'm just too lazy to type out what happened. So we left Washington DC at 7am and arrived in NYC at about 1030. The ride was pretty quick, Jonathan and I slept most of the time. So we get dropped off, and from where we were standing, we were able to see our hotel, The W.. so the boys assumed it was close.. but noooo.. it was hella freakin far to walk! I felt bad because Jonathan was carrying my biiiiiiiiig suitcase and it was just a pain bc it didn't have that pully bar thing. So we check into the hotel, then walk around Times Square. We saw the TRL window, so the first thing we wanted to do was try and get tickets into the studio! But they told us that they were in Cancun for spring break.. they said if we had gone the day before, we would have gotten tickets.. shucks. So we just go to the MTV store, go more sight seeing, eat real quick at McDonald's where Jonathan takes a shit, and this longgggg as line starts forming behind him, do more sight seeing and picture taking and souvenir shopping, go to the BIGGEST TOYS R US IN AMERICA and ride the ferris wheel there (yes, there is a ferris wheel INSIDE of the store) and a man showed Jonathan and I this card trick with an invisible deck, then rest at the hotel until Hansen and co arrive. Hanen shows us NBC studios then we go to the Rockefeller center. We eat dinner there at The Sea Grill.. it was good food.. but not what I expected especially since it was really expensive. From where we were sitting, we watched tourists ice skate in front of us. At the end of the dinner, we ordered dessert, but they didn't have any of what we wanted left, so as we were about to leave, they bring 2 complentary cheesecakes and a chocolate souffle for me with a candle in it again! So we were all supposed to go ice skating after dinner, but it was too late already, so we just watched Nate and Jeremy ice skate. Hmm.. I forgot what we did after that.. I think I just went to bed. Oh yeah, then I got out of bed because the boys decided that they wanted to work out, so I just girl talked with Ces and Iliana until they came back.

Saturday morning I woke up at 8am because we all agreed to be ready by 10am so we could go out.. but noooo.. Hansen and everyone in his room didn't wake up til 10am so they said they'd be ready by 12.. but noooo.. they ended up waking up at 12, so I said nm and went around town with Jonathan and Jeremy. Finally, they meet up with us at 2pm.. we wait for them to eat until 3. So we go onto the tour bus that takes us all around NYC.. it was veryyyyy cold. But I got to see the big Macy's, the empire state building, and that's all I remember from the tour because I was too busy being cold. We stopped in China town so we did more souvenir shopping there. After that, we go to Ground Zero. It was kinda sad and depressing because there were pictures of 9-11 everywhere. Then we walk and see that building from Men In Black.. the headquarters or whatever. We took a ferry to Staten Island and I was able to see the beautiful Statue of Liberty! We couldn't go onto the island where Lady Liberty was because it was closed =( but I got to take pictures of it from far, so it's ok. So then we take the SUBWAY back to Times Square.. go to the hotel I think? We go back to the hotel, decided that we wanted to eat some sushi.. so Jonathan and I found this really nice sushi place called Ruby Foo's. It was just really different from all the other places we've been to. The food was great, the dessert was great.. I'm definitely going back there the next time I'm in NYC. We were all exhausted from our long day, we all just sleep back at the hotel.

I woke up early again on Sunday because we were supposed to stand in line for Aida tickets at the box office.. but we couldn't watch it anymore because the show was too late and Jeremy had a flight to catch. Jonathan Jeremy and I stand in line at tkts where they sell broadway show tickets for 50% off. We get 3 front mezzanine tickets for RENT for only $48 each! Then we go to the Cathedral of St Patricks to attend mass. Again, another beautiful church. We go to the gift shop because Jeremy had to get something for his cousin, then Jonathan Jeremy and I runnnn to the hotel to get our bags ready and check out of the hotel.. then runn again to the RENT theater. The musical was great.. I really enjoyed it. After that, we rannnnnnnn again back to the hotel (7 blocks away), try to get our bags ASAP because Jeremy really needed to be at the airport.. but they lagged with our baggage.. blah. Jonathan's aunt and uncle pick us up from the hotel, we try to get to the airport as fast as possible.. but we kept hitting random traffic here and there.. finally we get to the Delta Airlines Terminal and the people right away said "no" to Jeremy and told him that he missed his flight.. 10 minutes later, they actually try, but they were JUST closing everything up, so he could have made it! They said the next available flight for Jeremy, if he wanted to use his mom's frequent flyer miles, wasn't until APRIL! haha.. so we said ehhh and rushed over to JetBlue. Jonathan and I checked all our bags in, and luckily, Jeremy was able to get a plane ticket with us! The problem was that it costed $250.. double what Jonathan and I paid. While Jeremy was waiting, he meets this Japanese chick who wants to borrow his cell phone.. she was pretty, and Jer kept flirting with her.. she ended up giving him a kiss on his cheek when he left. So when we were about to go through the gates, they tell Jeremy that he was RANDOMLY selected to be secondary searched! haha.. he just kept getting shitted on. Ok so we ate.. killed time before our flight.. then finally took off at 830pm! The flight was regular again, this time I slept most of the time.. 5 out of 6 hours. We arrived in Oakland 1155pm (oakland time) where my mom picked Jonathan and I up. Back at home, we just crashed.

ok the end. you must have been really bored if you read all of that.

Start spreading the news.. da da da.. I'm leaving today.. da da da.. Just to be a part of it.. New York! New York!
So I am finally leaving. This Washington DC/New York has been my biggest headache these past 2 weeks. But finally, things are all set. Hansen and I aren't fighting anymore, our plane tickets our set, the hotel reservations are set, the tickets for the bus from DC to NY are all set, and my bags are all set. Jonathan's bags aren't packed yet but I'm in the process of doing so right now because if he did it himself, he'd end up forgetting underwear and socks and everything else he needed. So yeah, those will be set in no time. Anyway, this will be an interesting birthday for me. My first time being away from my mom, sister, and the rest of my family! Also the first time not eating pancit (because I doubt we're gonna eat pancit there). Ok so here's to a wonderful trip! Great way to start off my spring break.

p.s. happy st. patricks day!

I had my very last classes of the winter quarter on friday and it was just such a relief to be done.. then later that night I went to Applebees for dinner with Sher, Ellison, Eileen, Sheila, Henessey, and Jonathan. Jonathan and I went home so I could study for finals and while he played counterstrike.. I didn't study because I wanted to sleep, so we watched Friends until we fell asleep. Saturday morning I started studying (but not for long) then distracted myself with home stuff. I stopped by Hampton Inn for a while to say hello to Jonathan before heading off to work. The store was soooo messy but it was cool because MICAELA was there to keep me company! Yup, Mic my dear friend since 2nd grade to now is my co-worker... didn't stay too long thisi time.. went home.. was gonna study, but didn't went to bed. Sunday Jonathan and I went to church.. went to lunch at Happi House with Joanne.. picked up a book at home so I could study at the other home.. hung out at Jonathan's house.. did the rosary bc of the Virgin Mary.. studied some more in Joanne's room.. then went home and took a nap. When I woke up, I packed for SC.. went to SC.. did last minute cramming for my first final while Jonathan played CS and guitar.. and went to bed. Monday I woke up the earliest ever.. 7am!!!! Took my psychological statistics final at 8am.. I think I did pretty good.. then I studied for the rest of the night for BIOLOGY.. took breaks to watch tv, eat, and talk on the phone.. continued biology until I fell asleep. This morning I woke up, studied some more.. went to brunch with Sher and Meg.. did more bio cramming.. then took the final... I PASSSSSED. Thank you Jesus that I'm not getting a bad grade in the class! Hmm.. after that I had only 3 hours to study for my Human Sexuality final.. so I did more last minute cramming.. finally took it and took me only 20 minutes. It wasn't so bad.. for sure I passed. Jonathan and Jeremy came to pick me up for SPRING BREAK!!!! but first we headed to slug books to sell back my books, but it was CLOSED. Instead, Jonathan and Jeremy grabbed a bunch of the free stickers from the bookstore and put one on this girl's car. Well she saw, and as we were backing out of the parking space, she put the sticker on Jonathan's car.. haha.. hmm then we all hung out in our neighbor Ben's room (not Ben Davis) and listened to them "jam" on the guitar and drums.. quite entertaining.. then went to dinner with Sher.. hung out some more.. then finally headed home to San Jose. So I talked things out with my oldest friend in the world, Hansen, and now our DC/NY trip is SET. Soooooo tonight I must pack because we're leaving tomorrow.

interesting fact for today: Males produce ONE THOUSAND sperm a second while females release only ONE egg a month. So if you're a male, you produced 5,000 sperm just reading that sentence.. 7,000, 8,000.. haha

ANYWAY, I had my VERY last class of Human Sexuality today =( and Biology =). Jonathan is here and we went to the beach for a bit.. then played some arcade games. Anyway, it's pretty loud here on my floor bc our neighbor (the cute guy) has a drum set, while the other has an electric guitar or something. OH YEAH, I was also in the cute guy's dorm room today for a bit because he was showing me his streaking tapes.. haha. Maybe I'll tell you the story sometime.. oh wait, I blogged about it below entitled "A Night at the Roxbury". Ok time for FRIENDS!

Patience is the key.
Soooo I've been stressing out on this stupid hotel business for our trip to New York for the past few days. I thought we had it all figured out when Jonathan finalized the reservations today at Double Tree Times Square, but noo, it's only a 3 star hotel, and some people were just not satisfied. Blah.. I hate how money gets in the way of everything. I mean, Jonathan, Jeremy, and I could pay however much Hansen wanted us to, it's just we worked for that money, and we want to spend it on something practical. We don't want to pay hella money to just SLEEP for 2 nights. If we asked our mommys and daddys to pay for everything.. then yeah, we wouldn't have a problem, but we're so old now.. like seriously, I realized a long time ago that I couldn't live off of my mom forever.. and it's ME out of all people who realized that. I mean, our parents are always willing to pay for our shit, but we just don't want that anymore. It's time to grow up. ANYWAY, back to what I wanted to write about: PATIENCE. Thank goodness I didn't lose my cool.. and good things happen to people who don't lose their cool.. well that's what I think. So now, Jonathan, Jeremy, Nate, and I will not be paying the million dollars they are paying, even though we're staying in the same exact hotel, but in different hotel rooms. Let's just say we're good with negotiation, and I would like to thank the W New York Times Square staff for being good with us. Hansen is lucky that I love him, otherwise, I would be throwing one of my famous tantrums at him right now. I'm going to be nice for Hansen.. ok the end.

p.s. it's not really a million dollars, I just like to exaggerate. Maybe when I'm older and a CEO of a company, I won't care about spending whatever money on 5 star hotels, but for now, since I'm only 18 (19 in 9 days!!!), I don't care about being ghetto and negotiating prices and looking out for special promotions.

This just in.
Jonathan booked more reservations! Our destination: Monterey, Ca. Yeah, it's not really anywhere "special" or out of the ordinary because we can go there anytime.. but who cares. It'll just be us.. spending the night on April 1st, then spending the next day all day at the beach. Something else to look forward to, I love you boyfriend! Oh yeah, the cute guy came into our dorm today bc his internet wasn't working, so he had to use ours to finish hw or whatever. I asked him about the whole dancing thing in my human sexuality class yesterday.. he laughed and looked embarassed then continued to use my laptop.

daryl posted this a long time ago.. well a few days ago, but I wanted to save it:

jules has been one of my best, if not best, female friends from notre dame in san jose. we really got nothing in common but we're actually kinda similar. for example, she's really girly and does really girly stuff. on the other hand, i'm not girly and i'm not all into girly stuff. i'm into wu-tang bitch. but we're really outspoken, she might be as much of a nsync fan as i'm a wu-tang fan, we rarely take shit from anybody, and so on. i've always felt comfortable talking to her about anything. the guys give her a lot of shit but it's only because we know she can take a joke and she's always cool about it.

A Night At The Roxbury
So during Human Sexuality today, I was sitting in class with Lorelei and her friend Cindy. All of a sudden, the song from "A Night at the Roxbury" started playing.. you know the one that goes "what is love? baby don't hurt me.. don't hurt me.. no more" blah blah. OK so, this asian guy (which I think is the "cute guy" from my floor" comes from the back doors of the lecture classroom (classroom unit 2, which is wayyyy big and is made for 500 students), walks down the stairs while shaking his ass. He's only wearing some brown leopard print (or cheetah?) underwear thats pulled up in the back so we could see his ass cheeks, a brown cowboy hat, and black sunglasses. So yeah, he walks down the stairs, then in front of the entire class (about 400 students) and the teacher, then walks out of the sidedoor, then the music stops playing. Then class started right after like nothing happened. Oh good ol' Santa Cruz.

Biology = Boring
I couldn't keep still in bio today bc of the wonderful weather and bc there was this guy sitting next to be who smelled soooo bad. fucking strong ass B.O. I wanted to puuuuke. Then he kept coughing and I heard all the phlegm in his mouth.. grossssssssssss.. and he kept scratching his head and stuff, and I swear I felt some of the shit he scratched off his head fall onto my arm.. akljasdklfjaslkdfj YUCK! Another distraction was that there was a lesbian couple sitting in front of me who were picking each others pimples on each others shoulders, then kissing the shoulders. I dunno, let's just say it was very hard for me to concentrate in boring biology today.

Beach Bums
On another note, everyone is walking around in their bikini tops and skirts, and swim shorts. The smell of suntan lotion is permeating the air.. and classes are getting empty. Maybe it's a bad thing that the beach is only 5-10 minutes away from campus? Come on summer.... hurry your ass up!

p.s. 10 days until the "big" 1-9! My ass is getting old. 11 days til spring! 7 days til spring break! and 8 days til DC & NY! Oh and I also feel a lot better ever since the week started bc of the wonderful weather and making up with my friends.

I don't think Benny will ever say something like this ever again, so let's just save it! haha

its BEN foo (7:32:59 PM): youre a goddess

but yah, I'll send you my lab reports for free anytime.

Weekend update!
So as always, my weekend started on Thursday. Jonathan came over and we played Texas Holdem (just the two of us.. haha), went to the library, and ate with Sher. After killing time for a lot of hours, Jeremy, Hansen, and Iliana arrive at 12am! Freakin Jeremy was lagging because he just HAD to play basketball at USF.. and of course he just HAD to lag after that.. so yah. We took our guests to Cafe Revolution.. and Open Mic was still going on. There were two guys on "stage": singing and playing the guitar.. I dunno, I wasn't feeling it. So I treated them all out to coffee, and we showed them the game room. Jonathan and Jer played air hockey, then Jonathan and Sher played ping pong, then Hansen, Jer, and Jonathan played this one version of pool that took a long time, while Sher was playing ping pong with this random guy, and while Iliana and I were watching them all and watching "Grease". We were laughing at Sher bc we designated her to play ping pong with that guy and he took off his shirt just to play with her, and it wasn't a pretty sight. It was already 2 or 3am, so we went back to the dorms and chilled. Jer and Hansen ended up getting into a fight, so Hansen stormed out with Iliana and went back home to San Jose. I talked to Hansen while he was driving back, and then I talked to Jeremy.. I swear, those two still fight like they were still in 3rd grade. At 4am, I went straight to bed, while Jer slept on the floor, and with Jonathan and Sher snoring their brains out.. haha.. ok it wasn't that bad.. I was probably snoring too. Jonathan thought I was talking in my sleep because I said "shut up" randomly, but I was just telling him to shut up bc he was snoring in my freakin ear.

Friday morning I went to class, blah blah and ate with Jer and Jonathan. While we were eating, Hansen called me and wanted to talk to Jer, so they made up. Hansen and Iliana came back to Santa Cruz RIGHT when we were about to leave.. so Jer rides with them so they could go gallivanting while Jonathan, Sher, and I went home. Back in SJ, Jonathan went straight to work, and Sher and I napped in my room until we left for Regent Rampage. It was great being in my old comfortable environment and it was great seeing people I haven't seen in a long time. When I hugged Mrs. Riley, I almost started crying because I missed ND so much! After the rally, we dropped Sher off, picked up Jer's car at Lic's house, went to Blockbuster to rent some movies, then watched at Hansen's house. When Jonathan got there, he played Holdem with Jer and Joel while Hansen, Iliana, and I continued to watch "The Order". When we put on "School of Rock" Hansen and Iliana fell asleep and Jer left bc of his mom.. so Joel, Jonathan, and I enjoyed the rest of it. Jonathan and I didn't get home til about 4am.. we were pooped so we went straight to bed.

Saturday morning was a great big struggle to wake up. Jonathan and I got ready and headed over to MHT for Charina's mom's memorial service. Although it wasn't a joyous occasion, it was nice seeing people I haven't seen in a long time. We couldn't go to the burial bc Jonathan had work, SOOOOOO Jonathan, Joel, Nate, Jer, Hansen, Iliana, and I went out to lunch at Carrow's. Nate decided he wanted to come with us to NY.. not sure about Joel yet, but yeah... this trip is going to be fuuuuun! Back at home, Jonathan and I took a nap until he had to leave for work and I told him to just take my car. My mom dropped me off at Jonathan's work later that night so I could pick up my car, then I headed straight to work. I returned some stuff.. then worked for 4 hours. I couldn't see Hansen and Iliana off at the airport, but it's ok, I'll be seeing them next week! Hmmm.. Jonathan came over after work, we watched Friends, then went to bed.

Sunday morning we got ready and went to church at St. Francis.. met up with Jonathan's family subtract dad, then went to lunch at Panda Express. Again, back at home, Jonathan and I took another nap and he ended up being late for work.. haha.. I continued sleeping and I woke up at 6!!! I had work at 6!! I panicked and drove fast to VF.. but it was fine, I was only 22 minutes late. At 10pm, we got a 30 minute break, so I went to Jack in the Box.. the fellow coworkers and I worked straight until 5 freakin AM!!!!!!!! It was freakin hell I tell you.. and we were all tired and delirious by the end of the night/morning. I even broke a nail! Jonathan met me at home.. he went straight to bed.. while I got my stuff ready for SC.. then went to bed.

This morning was another struggle to wake up bc of the 3 or 4 hours we got. Sher got dropped off, made a quick detour to McDonald's, arrived in Santa Cruz, said goodbye to my honeybee (2 days!!!), slept til 130, went to my class at 2pm, and now I'm doing nothing. My one class today was great bc we had a pop quiz, but it's university policy that quizzes aren't allowed the week before finals, sooooo all we had to do was put our names on the paper and turn it in.. easy full credit! Anyway, it's a beautiful day and I want to go to the beach.. but no means of transportation! well except the bus, but no. ok bye.

post script. 12 days until SPRING!!! 11 days until my birthday!!!! 9 days until DC and NEW YORK!!! and just 8 days til the start of spring break! All I have to do is get through this week by STUDYING, take finals next week on just Monday and Tuesday, and I'll be home free until March 30 (first day of classes for me)!!!

Start spreading the news.. I'm leaving today.. just to be a part of it.. NEW YORK NEW YORK! So we're not leaving today, but we (Jonathan and I) will be! It's official!! We're going to WASHINGTON DC and NEW YORK CITY!!!! yay!!! I just booked our flights online, so now all I have to worry about is packing!!! whoooohoooo! So we're leaving wednesday night on march 17, and we're coming home sunday night/monday early morning on march 21. ahh I'm so excited.. Jeremy will be meeting us in DC and Hansen and his gf are gonna be showing us around DC.. then we're gonna leave for NYC and stay there for a night or two..ahhh i'm just so excited!!!! This will definitely be a great start to spring break.. great great great.. and a great birthday present too!

Future. On another note, I declared to PRE-PSYCHOLOGY today.. yay! I can slowly see my future unfolding before my eyes... well not really. It just feels weird to be declared.. i'm not declared PSYCHOLOGY yet, but I will be soon. I'm going to stick to this major for sure.. it's fun and I enjoy it and I can see myself studying this stuff for the rest of my life. So yah.. go psychology! Hopefully, Hansen and I will still work together side by side as the coolest lawyers in wherever we are. It's been our dream since we were in 1st grade.. maybe sooner. But yah, if I go the other path and become a doctor instead of a lawyer, I'll be his shrink just in case he goes crazy with all of his crazy cases and clients.

Life in general. So if you couldn't tell already, I'm pretty satisfied with my life right now. Like really, there isn't anything missing. Well maybe, some things here and there.. but I'm satisfied. Like the only thing I feel "crappy" about is school.. but everything works out for the best, so I don't want to stress over my grades.. because whatever I get, I get. Just as long as I work hard.. I guess.. haha. So yeah, I don't think anyone or anything can bring my optism down.. whoooo.. I'm a happy camper.

Golden Year. Oh yeah!!! I'm also turning 19 on the 19th of this month, which makes it my golden year. So 17 days until my birthday, mark your calendars everyone!

To Mister Jonathan. So it's been a year since Jonathan and I have been back together.. well it's probably been more than that because we acted like a couple before he "officially" asked me back and wanted to give US another try. I don't really want to call tomorrow (march 2nd) our one year anniversary because.. I dunno, I just don't.. and I really can't because we've got a long past behind that. It doesn't really matter either because it's the QUALITY of the time we spent together during this year and not the quantity at all. But for all of you who don't know Jonathan, you have to know that he's the greatest thing that has ever happened to me... and it took me 2 years of not being with him and 1 year of not speaking/seeing him at all to realize that. My mom and aunt were having a conversation the other night about him, and my aunt asked my mom if there was ANYTHING about Jonathan that she didn't like. And after thinking about the question, my mom said, "hmm.. actually.. I love everything about him". Just like me, my mom sees all the goodness that is in this boy. My GRANDPA even loves him.. and for all of you who know my grandpa, you know he's one hardcore thug.. well not a hardcore thug, but you know.. goodness. It takes A LOT for my grandpa to like you.. he STILL doesn't completely approve the spouses that all of his children have chosen to marry and have kids with.. but he approves of Jonathan. So I'm taking that as a green light.

I'm grateful for everything Jonathan has done for me. I still remember the day I talked to Jonathan for the first time when I was only 7 years old. I don't think we ever formally introduced ourselves to each other. We just automatically knew each other because we both went to MHT. i stll remember Jonathan being my FIRST CRUSH EVER when I was just 12 years old (in 6th grade). I was always picky with boys and I NEVER liked any of the boys in my class (no offense Jeremy and Hansen).. even when people were getting with each other left and right. But yeah, I don't forget the day I was eye-ing him from the girls' bathroom when one of his friends were telling me that I would look cute with him. I don't regret saying "yes" to Jonathan when he asked meto dance with him for the first time when I was 12 (but in 7th grade this time) even though there was 2 to 3 feet in between us. I even remember the song we danced to (I Care 'Bout You) and I STILL get goosebumps everytime I hear it. I even remember Joel singing it to us as we danced. I forgive Lisa for not telling me Jonathan secrets when I was 13 because apparently, she had some inside news about who Jonathan was jockin. I remember waiting for Jonathan to sign on his sn "DeFsQuAdJ".. and then it took me 10-30 minutes to just think of an excuse to IM him from my sn "PnAyJOoLeZ".. but I remember we would chat for hours and hours. The biggest excuse I used to talk to him was to help me with my old webpage with Lisa (http://www.angelfire/com/dErEaLmGeNeRaTiOn2). I wish he asked me to dance again on valentine's day, but he made up for it on my birthday. I still remember the feeling I felt when Jonathan called my pager/voicemail to wish me a happy 13th birthday.. but I wish I forgot the feeling I felt when he threw down my birthday invitation when one of my friends was trying to give it to him.. I guess he was just trying to be cool in front of his friends. But he made up for it when he called me with Joel on the line to say happy birthday not over a voicemail... and I still laugh about the prank calls and prank voicemail calls I used to get from Jonathan. He used to leave the songs "Sending My Love" by Born Jamericans and "Can't Take My Eyes Off You by Lauryn Hill on my voicemails as hints that he liked me. Oh yeah, and he used to prank page me too. I still remember his 8th grade graduation dance when someone pulled my wrist to go dance with him. The room seemed to split in 2 leaving a path for the both of us to walk to each other.. really, I felt that way. I wish we danced longer, but I was only in 7th grade and I wasn't allowed! I still remember our end of the year field trip to Raging Waters and staring at him the ENTIRE day.. good thing the day ended with a phone call from him and we FINALLY expressed our feelings for one another. Well not really, we just knew. I remember we talked for hoursss and I remember being on my bed just listening to music with him and debating about stuff and just having a good time. I remember the day and time he asked me to FINALLY be his girlfriend (june 23, 1998 at 12:20am). I remember our first of many dates to Mercado. I remember the first time we kissed. I can still feel the butterflies and my knees getting weak and my breath being taken away by him.. and it was just a PECK too. Can you imagine how I felt when we kissed kissed for the first time? I remember our first Christmas together.. he came over with his mom and he brought me some freshly baked cookies that he made himself... and he can STILL bake greaaaaaaaaat cookies. I remember him being there for me when my parents were getting a divorce.. he stayed by my side and didn't judge me. He was the very first person I told EVERYTHING to.. about my family.. about me.. about my crazy life. He was there for me when I was moving onto high school. I remember our first winter ball.. and our second.. and our second valentine's day when he gave me a CD and all the girls at school were like wowww. I try not to remember our times of trouble when we were on the verge of breaking up.. it still breaks my heart when I think about it. But we both don't regret the time we spent away from each other, because every day we were without each other, we gained more appreciation and we realized that we did find love when we were only 13/14. The thing is that we met too young. But I remember when we started talking again when I was 17 and about to be a senior in high school. All the feelings I had for him came rushing back to me and it felt like he never left my side. I remember how nervous I felt when I brought him a valentine's day surprise at work.. that same night, we had another talk that lasted for hoursssss and I gave him a hug and the feeling I felt when I had Jonathan in my arms was the greatest feeling I ever felt. Even if we didn't bring up the subject about "us", I felt the love he felt for me, and I know he felt the same love back. I remember him breaking one of my favorite headbands, so he rushed to Claire's and bought me two more. I remembered our history. I realized that I was given another chance to have my Jonathan back in my life.. and I took that chance. Every day that we are together, we are taking a chance. It's not a guarantee that we're going to be together forever, but taking a chance on Jonathan is worth it all. Getting my heart broken when I was only 15 by Jonathan was worth all the great times we have spent together. I remember our SECOND first date eating sushi in downtown San Jose. I remember the night he told me that he wanted to start from where we left off and I remember the 23 chocolate chip cookies he brought with him. So anyway, my point is that this year with Jonathan was 10 times more memorable and more meaningful than all of those other years. It's because we both realized the meaning of actually loving a person. We don't tell each other that we love each other on a daily basis, but when we do, it feels like the first time he ever said those words to me and meant it. My Jonathan is the greatest there is. I don't even have to brag about him because everyone that matters to me thinks he's great too.

So anyway, CHEERS to you, Jonathan. I love you and thank you for a wonderful year of love from you.

p.s. at this rate, we're going to beat our record of 2 and a half years in no time =)