it was not intentional at all.. it was a TOTAL accident. i wish i never had the internet. i wish i never learned how to read. i wish i never had the ability to feel. i wish trust was as easy as 1, 2, 3. i wish assumptions were never made. what a great start to my holiday season.

oh yeah, I also called about 30 different stores all over San Jose and Santa Cruz and even Campbell and Palo Alto to look for UGG boots for Lisa. no luck. sucky. I really wanted to find them for her too!

wowee.. I feel like I haven't blogged for days. Well the reason why I couldn't (and still can't) is because my sister spilled minute maid on my laptop keyboard.. so the letters are messed up. The "s" key doesn't work.. so I'm using her comp right now.. so let's recap since my last entry.

-last thursday my dearest drove me, Meg, and Sher to Denny's here in Santa Cruz, but it took us a while to find it.
-last friday I took a chem midterm and ACED it! That night, Meg, Jonathan, and I went to eat Chinese food.
-saturday morning I was still in Santa Cruz. I believe my first time in Santa Cruz on a Saturday. I took the Subject A again and passed it with flying colors. I went back home to San Jose to wish my mother a HAPPY 41ST BIRTHDAY! It was also Sheila's cotillion.. I was a candle.. then Jonathan and I left after the program to go to my family party at my grandparents' house for my mom's bday. Lots of drunk relatives and hyper cousins.. the norm. It was grand.
-sunday was yet another anniversary. we don't really celebrate the monthly ones anymore though. There was cotillion practice, Eastridge to get shoes for the cotillion, 2 Bulldog stores to find the maryjanes (then got em for $5 cus Jonathan knew the worker). Albertson's to buy Jonathan's mom flowers because she was sick. watched Simpsons at his house.. and oh yeah, stopped by Our Lady of Peace because we missed mass at MHT.
-hmm.. I went home Monday morning and missed Chemistry.. blah. Goodrich came to visit us! and Mariel too! Mariel, Meg, Dianne, and I went to a hip hop event at Oakes.. it was cool. They competed in DJ-ing, breaking, MC-ing, and tagging. Then went to a laaaaaate 1am dinner/breakfast and Goodrich came along while we left Sher and Ellison under the covers in our dorm.. haha.. it's ok guys!
-Tuesday, went to Psychology, and napped in my room until Jonathan picked me up. He was sick so he was bitching at me, but it's ok now. We grabbed some sushi at Ariake then rested at home because he was burning up.
-Yesterday, Jonathan woke me up because he was thirsty. We went to KFC to get his raspberry iced tea. picked up my sister, her friend, and her friend's siblings at school.. dropped em off. went to cotillion practice.. stayed for a longgggg time because we tried on our dresses and people got their hair done as practice. stopped by Jonathan's apartment to pick up his clothes then stayed at my house for a bit. Jonathan left to go to his house to see his family when I was almost asleep.
-today. HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Finally stress-free
So the week is winding down and I do not have any more big assignments to worry about. All I have is a small presentation in English, which I am prepared for, and chem midterm, which I am prepared for, and a writing test on saturday, which I am prepared for. Yes, I am prepared. hmm, so I'm just waiting for Jonathan to get his big behind over here. I think he is on 17 right now, so he should be here soon. My internet got shut down because of some virus I got from my sister's AIM profile.. sucky. So now res-net here at school has to reconnect my port and blha blah blah blah blah. Thank goodness I finished enrolling in all of my classes. Unfortunately, I am not taking any psych courses this upcoming quarter, but I have no reason to fret because I went over my GE requirements and my Major requirements for Psych, and I'm not behind at all. I'm gonna take summer school so FOR SURE I can graduate in 4 years. I always overhere the seniors here saying, "yeah, it's my 5th year here, I only have ONE more quarter... if I pass my classes". Pretty scary, and I don't wanna end up saying that stuff.. ahh I hope I'm not jinxing myself. OH YEAH, and I have NO MORE meals left on my meal account thingy cus I thought I had this one plan that gives you 14 meals a week, so I would just use my meals whenever and pay for whoever cus I never finished all 14 meals. When I went on Monday to eat, I had no more meals.. I had a smaller meal plan.. haha. It's ok though because Sher (who also used all her meals) have been living on hot pockets, chicken bake, and cup o noodles all week. Only a few more days of this quarter anyway. Ok, the end. I'm tired.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO MY BESTESTESTESTTTTTTT AND OLDESTTTTT FRIEND IN THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Miss Lisa Marie Joves Raymundo!

So this entry is dedicated to my dearest Lisa. Lisa and I have known each other since the first grade. We didn't become best friends until 5th or 6th grade because she had other best friends from K-4th. Anyway, we have been through EVERYTHING together, seriously. We went through our first boyfriends, second boyfriends, and third boyfriends together, pager and pager code stage, cell phone stage, pinay pride (or shall I say PiNaY pRyDe) stage, umm.. AIM stage (and still are), mom's are on PMS the entire month stage, Nike Uptempo stage, ANORAK stage, dude ok that's enough. I was heart-broken when we went off to different highschools, but all was well because we still stuck to each other like glue. She helped in the process to get my FOUR (Jonathan) and I helped in the process to get her FOUR (Christopher). We're always there for each other no matter what, and there is no such thing as a random call/text message/IM when it comes from each other. Although Lisa has her BLONDE moments like ALLLLLLLLLLL THE TIME, I still love her. I think her ditzy-ness is cute sometimes.. haha. Anyway, I could go on forever, but I have to study for midterms. So here's a toast to Lisa!

<3 your bestestestestestest friend, JuLeNeTtE (haha, you made that up!!!!)

p.s. remember when it was your bday, and I would always play Lisa's bday song from the Simpson's on my PAGER/VOICEMAL??? hahha.. *Lisa it's your birthday, happy birthday Lisa* oh yeah, and dude, this is like the FIRST year I didn't sleep over for your bday!!!! I'll invite myself this weekend =)

LINK for that Love Test thingy --> http://www.selfnetwork.com/love.asp

I think I jinxed myself when I was happy about my grades at school because as of right now, I have a C+/B- in Psych.. well I calculated it myself, so it might not be accurate. My last essay still has to get curved so yeah. I hope I get a B!!!! and in my English class, I got a B- one the last essay I got back.. boo, so no more A-.. it might just be a B+. Actually, I can redo that essay, but I'm lazy.. we'll see if I'm not lazy by the end of this quarter (probably). My chemistry classes can stilll go either way because I'm waiting for a lab report to be returned to me and a midterm.. blah blah blah. I hate school.

Stupid Psychology.
So I am a Psych major and I can see my future going down the drain. I didn't do too well.. well I guess average.. on my first psych exam and I did VERYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY horrible on my first psych essay.. like REALLY horrible. The worst grade I've ever gotten on ANYTHING. This was on thursday when I got the essay back, right after I took the second psych exam. I felt pretty confident about the second psych exam but I don't want to excite myself so I am just expecting the worst and hoping for the best. I just e-mailed a rough draft for my second essay to my TA who I strongly dislike right now because of the horrible grade he awarded me with.. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! Pray that I get at least a B in this class! Please.. this is my future!

Speeding to get KFC.
Thursday night, Jonathan and I had a late night craving, so as he was driving down the hill off campus, he gets pulled over. Apparently, the speed for going down hill was 25 mph and he was going 42 mph. The cop was really nice and put down 40 mph. If he put down 42, then Jonathan would be paying a fine of $160 instead of the $90 he has to pay. When we got to KFC, it just closed =(

Poor Sherilyn
So at UCSC, we use our ID cards to pay for our meals at the dining halls, and when we forget our ID cards, we write down or SS# and they deduct a meal from our card from there. Well Sherilyn gets 14 meals a week (which doesn't sound like much but is A LOT) just like me and for the passed two weeks, her meals have been at ZERO. We were both confused because it was both of first times to eat for the week. She checked that book where people write down the SS#, and someone has been signing in with her SS#.. what a jerk. So yesterday, when Ellison and Mike Tangga came, I had to buy meals for me, Jonathan, Sher, Ellison, and Mike. It's ok Sher, we'll track down that jerk and make him eat until he explodes.

Party of 3.
Last night, after coming home from Santa Cruz, Jonathan picks up his cousin Justin and the three of us eat at Ariake. I eat sushi while the other 2 eat rice plates. Justin hates sushi, which I cannot understand, but anyway, when were done we went to Oakridge. I was pretty depressed because I didn't have money to shop. Jonathan exchanged some jeans and bought a jacket and we walked into almost all of the shoe stores because of Justin. After circulating around the mall for a good 2 hours, we went to Santana Row to buy pearl drinks. When Justin ordered, he asked for "a blah blah blah with extra pearls" instead of asking for "a blah blah blah with pearls", so when he got the pearl drink, half of it was pearls.. haha. I guess you had to be there in order to think it was funny. We dropped Justin back at the apartment and Jonathan and I watched "Finding Nemo" at my house then went to my Alma Mater to pick up Joanne and her bf from the mixer. Jonathan and I fell asleep watching "Boy Meets World".

Officially homeworksick.
lkjasfjalksdflkasdfsadfjasdf. Ok, I only took a break to blog. This is what the rest of my weekend entails:
*6 page research paper-- didn't start
*3 page psychology paper final draft--finished the first draft
*complete lab report--didn't start
*prelab--almost finished
*chemistry problems--started but couldn't do any
*read psychology chapters--didn't start
*study for chemistry midterm--didn't start
*read all chemistry chapters--didn't start
Yeah, and this is all for monday or tuesday. Kill me now. I'm screwed =*(

Mallrats.
My day dedicated to studying went down the drain. When Jonathan was done with his midterm, he went straight to my house (along with some La Victoria).. so we did the usual, watched tv, played on the comp, blah blah blah. He needed to go to Eastridge to get fitted for his tux for Lisa's cotillion.. so I was going crazy because of the sales.. I wanted to buy shoes and like all this other crap from macy's and stuff.. but I didn't. We picked up my sister then went to Great Mall right after that. I wanted to exchange this jacket I bought, but they didn't have the size I wanted. We were in a rush again because Jonathan had to go back to school because he had a midterm at 5. There was no time to bring me back home and I couldn't go to class with him because they were taking a midterm, so killed time in the car for about an hour by throwing away receipts, playing with the new belts I bought, and calculated my cell phone minutes. When he came back, we went to Oakridge. Wow... it's soooo great there. I think I'm gonna start shopping there from now on because they have everything! We went to Old Navy and I returned the jacket and got a better one! and my dearest paid for the difference because I had no more money. Then we went to Border's because he wanted the Adobe Premiere book, but it was about $50 and he decided that he didn't want it that badly. But on a good note, he bought the "Finding Nemo" DVD for me! It was on sale! Oh these sales.. ahh I'm going crazy just thinking about the sales going on right now because I wanna buy so many things.. and I'm going crazy just thinking about the day after thanksgiving.. ahhh!

My sister & her new bf.
Well she's probably gonna be pissed at me for blogging about this, but I can't help it. I used to joke around with a friend of mine about how our younger siblings would get together one day.. and yeah.. we were right. She's trippin though because our mom knows, but she doesn't care! My mom knew about Jonathan in 7th grade and she was fine with it. It was my sister's fault anyway because she wouldn't tell me and I found out on my own by looking at her xanga. I'm telling you people, if you do not want your shit to be known, don't post it on your xanga/blog or your AIM profile. Don't get mad if the entire world finds out because it was YOUR BAD!

Shop til I drop.. or not.
So Jonathan and I decided to sleep in this morning so I was in fact late for my chemistry lecture.. oh well, chem sucks anyway. So for once, I drove to Santa Cruz while Jonathan annoyed me. I went to the rest of my classes while he stayed in the dorm and played cs. It was about 5pm when we left Santa Cruz and we didn't eat anything yet! So we went straight to Valley Fair and ate at Sarku.. yum! For some reason, we still weren't full, so we got some Cinnabon. Jonathan still wasn't satisfied.. but he let it be. The past few days we were at the mall, we were pressed for time, but not today! So we took our precious time browsing through all the stores we wanted to browse through. I was going crazy because I wanted to buy so many things.. ahh the sales!!!!! Instead, I bought my mom a birthday gift and accessories for myself. I realllllllllllly wanted this brown suede jacket that I wanted.. and it was on sale.. I tried it on.. it was beautiful and it smelled beautiful (I enjoy the smell of leather), but I did not purchase it because I felt that my mother was more important. By the time the two of us were done.. we were dragging our feet to my car. Jonathan didn't even buy anything.. haha. He almost bought this $30 furry hat thing at Gap, but I stopped him. My feet ache, my neck aches, my shoulders ache, I have a headache, and my eyes even ache! I was gonna study for my psych midterm with Jonathan while he studied for stats or something, but he ditched me. Oh well, I'll just study all by my lonesome. But going back to shopping, I'm tired as hell and I only bought accessories!

Santa Cruz.
As usual, Jonathan came to Santa Cruz on Thursday. Apparently, there were runners (streakers) again, but not as many as the first night. He showed me the mini movies he made and they were adorable. The next day, I went to class as usual while he waited in my dorm as usual then we went back to San Jose.

Date!
I was more excited than usual because he got a phone call and was informed that he did not have to work! So we went on a mini date.. we ate sushi at Ariake, went shopping at Great Mall, then watched "The Elf" at the theaters. We never watch movies there anymore, so I was excited because I knew we were going to see at least 5 people that we knew.. and we did.. haha.. even more. Back at my house, we watched tv, ate kettle corn, then went to bed.

Saturday
We had a rude awakening by my sister (because we slept in her room on her extra bed) and told us that we had to take her and her 2 friends to Dave n Buster's for their other friend's bday party. So Jonathan and I got ready.. then I get a call from Lisa and she informed me that we had cotillion practice. I was stressing because it was 12 when we left my house to pick up my sister's friends who weren't ready yet.. and practice started at 11. I was on the verge of tears because I was stressed out.. blah blah. We stayed at practice for about 30 or 40 minutes then left again to pick up my sister and her friends. Again, I was stressed out because I really wanted to exchange some things, but I had no time. I was rushed.. and I HATE being rushed especially when I shop. We had to be back before 3 because Jonathan had work.. blah blah. My sister's friends stayed at my house and Jonathan went to work. I was actually productive while I was at home.. I managed to finish hw assignments that are not due til later this week. When Jonathan came home from work, we went to his friend's cousin's party.. everyone was drunk. We didn't stay for long because it was already late. Back at my house, we chit chatted about whatever then fell asleep.

Today.
We had to wake up early again this morning because we had cotillion practice. Jonathan was lagging in the shower so we didn't get to Lisa's til 12. We practiced.. very productive practice.. then went home. We made a quick detour to Ross because I wanted to buy some cheap scarves, but no luck.. they were all ugly. Jonathan was just here for about 5 seconds, but he left to visit his mommy.

Bored.
I am bored because I dunno.. Oh yeah.. I rearranged my room because I was bored. First, I started cleaning it.. then I cleaned my closet.. then all of a sudden I was pushing furniture. I'm just typing nonsense now. I'm going back to Santa Cruz in the morning, but I'm going to leave after my last class to San Jose because I don't have school on Tuesday.

Saving time.
When I was on the bus this morning with Sherilyn on our way to chemistry, we see this guy walking on the sidewalk brushing his teeth casually. He had toothpaste in one hand, and brushing his teeth away with the other. He also had a water bottle conveniently placed in his pocket. I know we should do everything we can to save time, but that was just ridiculous.

School.
So I really thought I would be flunking out of college because I am SOOOO not disciplined when it comes to school anymore, but I am surprisingly doing well (for the first quarter). I have about a B+/A- in my english class, a B-/B in psychology, a B/B+ in chemistry, and a B+/A- in chemistry lab. Hopefully by the end of the quarter, I'll do better.

Bong Boy.
Sherilyn and I were walking to visit our friend Ryan at his dorm and all of a sudden we see a guy coming out of another dorm room..acting very secretive. We look down and we see his left hand holding a BIG ASS bong.. haha. He was trying to hold it behind his back so we couldn't see it.. but uhh... yeah we saw. We even laughed right when we saw it, but I guess he was too stoned to notice that we were laughing at him. When we walked past the dorm he came out of, we could hella smell the weed. Oh the pleasures here at UCSC.

November 1, 2000
I remember that day like it was yesterday. I didn't shed any tears, and I ended things like it was nothing. So this is kinda random, but I was thinking about it and felt like blogging. November 1, 2000 was the day Jonathan and I broke up... it's weird because if we weren't back together, it would have been THREE years being apart. It's so crazy how the years go by so fast.. but I guess it's a good thing in a way. But yeah, even though I didn't cry the moment I ended things, I cried like crazy like a minute later, even crazier the next day.. and yadda yadda. In a way, that break up was good for us because we were able to appreciate and love each other more. We were able to experience new people and new situations.. things that we probably could not do if we stayed together. Anyway, that is all in the past and we are together now and we are as happy as can be! yeah yeah.. kinda cliche, but we really are.. huh bubby boo boo???? haha.

Ass.. and lots of it.
On another random note, last night was First Rain (the first time it rains) at UCSC, so that means NAKED RUN. Yes people, it is true, there were hundreds of people running a marathon around campus last night.. NAKED and in the rain. It's so weird, yet kinda interesting, but still a bit disturbing. They ran through dining halls, in front of dorms, just everywhere. Mehgan said it was mostly guys and a few girls holding their big ass boobs while running. Hah.. I heard they do it 2 nights in a row sometimes, so maybe I'll see some ass tonight.. haha.
ice 0ueen 74 (10:29:03 PM): oh man...i don't think you'd want to see that
ice 0ueen 74 (10:29:06 PM): just alotta flopping
me (10:29:09 PM): haha ew
ice 0ueen 74 (10:29:39 PM): and boobs
ice 0ueen 74 (10:29:40 PM): and ass
ice 0ueen 74 (10:30:43 PM): all in all...it was interesting...

Another random thought.
My sister went to Cal-Skate tonight for the annual MHT Cal-Skate night. She told me that she couple skated (but not holding hands) and I hella thought of Jonathan and I during our MHT years and when we couple skated HOLDING HANDS.. *ooooooooooooh thinking about our younger years... it was only you and me.. we were young and wild and free. nowwwwwwwww nothing will take you away from me..* hah. the end.

Oh yeah, Jonathan and I also got haircuts today. I was about ready to chop all my hair off. I am seriously sick of it... it's so freakin long that I have to put my hair up everytime I have to go to the bathroom. It takes 20342903423 hours to brush, so most of the time it's up in a messy bun. If you are ever in Jonathan's car, you will find my hair all over the place and if you're ever in my room, you'll find my hair all over the place. Jonathan doesn't even like to hug me when we sleep because my hair goes in his face! But that punk is the reason why I won't/can't cut it. So I only got a trim today.. about 2 inches. Since I didn't get to chop it all off like I wanted, I treated myself to an eyebrow waxing too. lasdfjlaksdjflasdjf. I want to cut my hair!!!! and if I regret it, it will grow back.

Happy 18th Birthday Miss Eileen Mae Villanueava!!! (10/30)

Happy 18th Birthday Miss Jennifer Hang Le!!!! (10/31)

Happy 18th Birthday Mister Villiard Corrales Nguyen.. haha kidding! (11/1)

Happy 18th Birthday Mister Ryan Madarang! (11/1)

I love you all!

Halloween in Santa Cruz
That morning, Sherilyn was trying to explain to me that there was a guy sitting next to her in class in an orange jail outfit wearing a mask and that she was really freaked. 10 minutes later, she realized it was Halloween.. haha, anyway, out of my 3 classes that day, I only went to 1 and 1/4. I slept through my first class and missed another quiz.. well it's just an attendance quiz anyway.. I went to my chemistry class with Sher and Meg, but after being 15 minutes late, and then staying for 15 minutes, we left. I dunno, I was extremely lazy. Also, I totally forgot it was Halloween because it was my first year not dressing up and when I saw people in costume, I thought they were weirdos. With some people, I didn't know if they were in costume or if they were in their normals clothes.. haha. It also rained! But no naked people running around--you can ask me about that. I saw a white MC Hammer bumping "Ice Ice Baby" and a super hero with just body paint and pants on.

Applebees for Eileen
Jonathan, Meg and I went back to San Jose and after dropping Meg off, waiting for Sher and Ellison to arrive, and picking up Sheila, we were on our way to greet the birthday girl. Sher and I were realllly excited because we haven't seen everyone in a while, even though we come home every weekend. At Sheila's house, we ran into Sheila's room and hugged her.. haha.. she didn't even know it was us because it was so dark in her room, when she realized it was us, she gave us a hug. At Applebees, I gave everyone hugs and kisses and freakin Diana was the ONLY one in costume.. she was a pirate. During dinner, we gossiped, updated each other, talked about college life, made fun of each other, etc. It was just like old times. In the end, NO ONE wanted to do what Eileen wanted to do for her bday, except for a few of us. The problem was that Jonathan was the only willing driver.. well I was the only willing driver (of Jonathan's car). So Sheila, Diana, and I did our own thing while Jonathan slept in the car.

Castro Street
The way to San Francisco went by really quick because I was talking to Sheila and Diana about everything.. parents to boyfriends to school to whatever. Jonathan drove once we got to Castro Street and we sure did see all the freaks. We did not step outside of the car once, but it was so much fun. There were hundreds and hundreds of people walking around still and it was already 12 or 1am. I saw a lot of creative costumes.. a Spongebob who was really shaped like a box.. a SLIPPER!.. twister.. and my favorite, a typical filipino dude who was kinda chubby wearing a pink wig in pigtails! hahaha... that was mine and Sheila's favorite. Right when he passed by us, the two of us were laughing like crazy and he even laughed. We had our video cameras and people kept waving and coming up to us in the car and started dancing. There was one point when some random black and mexican dudes came up to our cameras and gave shout outs to their homies.. haha. Since our car was going 2 mph, a lot of people turned their music loud, got out of their cars, and started dancing around all the cars. Shoot, people were going hellllllla crazy..dancing in their cars, dancing out of their sunroofs, dancing on top of their cars... it was so fun to watch. The only bad part was that there was this one car in front of us with 2 black dudes and they were hella peeling out so helllllla smoke came out. It smelled like how my car smelled like when I started driving.. haha.. but 18234908340 times worse! So much smoke came out of their car that we couldn't even see through our window! The worst part was that there was hella black shit all over Jonathan's car when they were done. OH YEAH! When I was just randomly videotaping the costumed people, this mooseman ran up to the window and went BOO AAAAHHHHH!!!! and hella scared me.. haha, i was screaming too.. AND I have it on tape... hmm. Oh yeah, and when we finally U-Turned to go back home, this one guy tried running after a car that was in front of us and he got a cramp and he looked so funny running. I dozed off in the car a few times without being aware and before I knew it, I was home.

Disney On Ice
Yesterday, I felt like a kid again. We went to Disney on Ice because Jonathan saw it on the side of a bus and wanted to go.. haha.. and I guess as an anniversay gift in a way. Everywhere we turned, there were little kids jumping around everywhere asking their parents to buy them crap. I asked Jonathan if he would buy me a light up wand, and he said NO! I was so jealous of all the little kids because I was the only one who didn't have a light up wand! All the boys had light up swords and all the girls had those twirly light thingies or the wand. Oh well.. haha. Oh yeah, I also saw Henessey there. The show was sooooo good! It was about Mickey, Minnie, Donald, Daisy, and Goofy going on vacation. First they went to London where Peter Pan and Wendy were.. then where Cruela De Vil was with all the Dalmations. During the second act, they went underwater where Sebastian, Flounder, and Ariel where, then up shore to Hawaii where Lilo and Stitch were. The Little Mermaid segment was the best!!! I hope I go to the next one!