I love my new friend at school.
mariposa1002 (7:35:22 PM): let me tell you something....love is such an intense feeling that its hard to sustain it...thats why people experince ups and downs.....im sure he is just going through a downer...just have faith ok...
psych majors for life!
Monday, October 30, 2006
Monday, October 23, 2006
MySpace No More! 1/04 - 10/06
So instead of waking up early to START studying, I logged onto myspace.. browsed a few profiles.. then realized HOW MUCH I HATED IT. I love myspace only because it's an easier way to keep in contact with friends, but there are other means in keeping in touch - phone, AIM, email, or just plain going out! It was only a way for me to post up my pictures from the weekend... send pointless comments to my friends... and take up my homework/study time.
Then I looked at my friends list and realized that I only talked to like 20 people regularly. It's just so superficial to have my 550 friends and not really talk to any of them. I know, I'll probably regret this in a week or so, but right now, I just feel SO relieved! I was a bit hesitant at first.... I just started to delete my pictures, then my blog entries, then all of my friends, then my inbox/outbox. I still didn't feel better, so I just deleted the entire account after a lot of contemplating.
MySpace has caused MOST if not ALL of my major fights with Jonathan and with a few other people here and there. It's just plain drama. I know I could easily just mature and not let it get to me, but I don't think my will power is that strong at this point. As much as people don't want to accept it, myspace HAS become a part of everyday life - a part of this generation and society. People always say, "it's just MySpace," but in today's society, myspace is a pretty big deal. It sounds like a stretch, but it is so true!
I feel like I only know about my friends and what they look like through their myspaces.. well not ALL of them.. but the ones I barely talk to.. and I think that's a little sad. Nevertheless, I reopened an account to start fresh with people I actually talk to and have met more than 5 times. Yeah, I know I'm a hypocrite because I just went on and on and on about deleting my account and how much it sucked only to reopen it again. But I really do feel better because it took a lot of selflessness to erase ALL those friends and ALL those comments and ALL those blogs and ALL those little memories. I didn't think I was going to go through with it, but it was a test for me and I passed!
I also thought about this blog and how there was a big ol' xanga boom and drama here and there. But, this blog is only read by the few who still check blogs and who still remember my link. If anything, this blog is filled with more memories than my myspace.. and I feel like I've neglected it!
I think what pushed me over the edge in deleting my myspace was because I couldn't control getting butthurt over the stupidest shit. Well, of course I could control it.. but the only way I felt was to just get rid of it. I'd get butthurt over Jonathan not approving comments, or people not adding me as a friend when I'd request them or not getting a response after leaving comments! Yup, really stupid dumb little miniscule stuff, but it got to me! But it was mainly because Jonathan had a myspace again and I'd leave him comments and he would never comment back! But then I'd see him commenting other people left and right! I know people feel me on that one! I'd see people that I abhorred so greatly add him and leave him comments. And when I would leave comments, he wouldn't approve them because he said there was no point to them. He only approved a select few, but I think only because he had to approve another person's comment that was left after mine. Ok 95% of the comments we leave for people are pointless... we say hi or reiterate what we did over the weekend. I told him that sorry if my comments aren't full of wisdom! hahahaha.. seee.. I'm getting worked up again. and that's the reason why my account is gone!
Soooo since I feel like Jonathan and I are finally moving our way up out of that shitty hole we've been stuck in for almost a month now, it is only right to do away with the evil that keeps provoking me! hahaha.
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With all of that said, my goal for the week/weekend is to refrain myself from a petty fight with Jonathan. Saturday night I made the mistake in letting my selfishness getting the best of me. When minor girl called, I answered, handed the phone to him, then "accidentally" slid the phone closed. In order for it to not turn into a fight, we just dropped it. I really need to change that about me because it will annihilate our relationship one of these days.
Then I looked at my friends list and realized that I only talked to like 20 people regularly. It's just so superficial to have my 550 friends and not really talk to any of them. I know, I'll probably regret this in a week or so, but right now, I just feel SO relieved! I was a bit hesitant at first.... I just started to delete my pictures, then my blog entries, then all of my friends, then my inbox/outbox. I still didn't feel better, so I just deleted the entire account after a lot of contemplating.
MySpace has caused MOST if not ALL of my major fights with Jonathan and with a few other people here and there. It's just plain drama. I know I could easily just mature and not let it get to me, but I don't think my will power is that strong at this point. As much as people don't want to accept it, myspace HAS become a part of everyday life - a part of this generation and society. People always say, "it's just MySpace," but in today's society, myspace is a pretty big deal. It sounds like a stretch, but it is so true!
I feel like I only know about my friends and what they look like through their myspaces.. well not ALL of them.. but the ones I barely talk to.. and I think that's a little sad. Nevertheless, I reopened an account to start fresh with people I actually talk to and have met more than 5 times. Yeah, I know I'm a hypocrite because I just went on and on and on about deleting my account and how much it sucked only to reopen it again. But I really do feel better because it took a lot of selflessness to erase ALL those friends and ALL those comments and ALL those blogs and ALL those little memories. I didn't think I was going to go through with it, but it was a test for me and I passed!
I also thought about this blog and how there was a big ol' xanga boom and drama here and there. But, this blog is only read by the few who still check blogs and who still remember my link. If anything, this blog is filled with more memories than my myspace.. and I feel like I've neglected it!
I think what pushed me over the edge in deleting my myspace was because I couldn't control getting butthurt over the stupidest shit. Well, of course I could control it.. but the only way I felt was to just get rid of it. I'd get butthurt over Jonathan not approving comments, or people not adding me as a friend when I'd request them or not getting a response after leaving comments! Yup, really stupid dumb little miniscule stuff, but it got to me! But it was mainly because Jonathan had a myspace again and I'd leave him comments and he would never comment back! But then I'd see him commenting other people left and right! I know people feel me on that one! I'd see people that I abhorred so greatly add him and leave him comments. And when I would leave comments, he wouldn't approve them because he said there was no point to them. He only approved a select few, but I think only because he had to approve another person's comment that was left after mine. Ok 95% of the comments we leave for people are pointless... we say hi or reiterate what we did over the weekend. I told him that sorry if my comments aren't full of wisdom! hahahaha.. seee.. I'm getting worked up again. and that's the reason why my account is gone!
Soooo since I feel like Jonathan and I are finally moving our way up out of that shitty hole we've been stuck in for almost a month now, it is only right to do away with the evil that keeps provoking me! hahaha.
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With all of that said, my goal for the week/weekend is to refrain myself from a petty fight with Jonathan. Saturday night I made the mistake in letting my selfishness getting the best of me. When minor girl called, I answered, handed the phone to him, then "accidentally" slid the phone closed. In order for it to not turn into a fight, we just dropped it. I really need to change that about me because it will annihilate our relationship one of these days.
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Another weekend....
Wow.. so the week went by faster than I thought. I was stressed out Monday because of a stupid paper... but the paper wasn't even all that bad. I ended up finishing it up Thursday right before class. Then I realized, omg it's Thursday!
So my weekend sorta began. I was supposed to go and watch the sneak preview of "Marie Antoinette" with Mariel because she had free tickets, butttt I HAD to go and pick up Leanna from her volleyball game.. but I couldn't pick her up early because she HAD to stay for the Varsity game. It was pretty gay but I thought, oh well, I should stay home tonight since I have midterms to prepare for. But what did I do instead? After I picked her up, we went to Costco for Nip/Tuck Season 3. They didn't have it.. so we got some chicken bakes for dinner. Then we went to Walmart... they didn't have it. So we tried Hollywood Video since it was just right there... they had it, but not to sell, only to rent!! By this time, I was already frustrated, but I thought, OK I went to 3 stores already, what's one more? So we went to Circuit City, and they had it... but it was freakin expensive! We went to Costco and Walmart because ONLINE it was cheaper!! Well we bought it anyway because we were dying to find out what happened (since I bought Season 1 and 2 the week before). Sooo.. instead of going out, I decided to stay home and watch Nip/Tuck.
Friday, I woke up bright and early for work and it was Mariel's first day! My favorite Kevin trained her.. then Mariel and I grabbed lunch at this Thai place. I keep forgetting the name. Back to work I went... then the gym... then home. I was planning to go out, butttt the thing got cancelled and no one else was going out.. so I figured I'd stay home again. I know I'm a bum! I was so tired though. Then my manager called me and told me that we had a 730am meeting!! So that's when I knew for sure I had to stay home. For the rest of the night I talked to Jonathan and then I watched Nip/Tuck until I fell asleep.
Saturday, I went to work... was late 5 minutes. blah! Got a little crap for it.. but oh well. Work went by sooo slowwww because it was really slow. Sometimes that's good though. Then, I realized, WHOOHOO it's Saturday! I get to see my boyfriend! I called Jonathan during my break and he was at my house - so he says! I told him I wouldn't be home for another hour so he just went back to his house. After work, I visited my love and spent some qt in the living room! Geez I missed him! Then we went back to my house, changed, and headed to the gym. We were there for an hour and a half... and I realize only now how much we worked out! I'm actually sore! Jonathan went to get a hair cut, and then we went back to my house, showered, got ready, and went back to his house for dinner with his family. We couldn't think of anything to do, so we visited Ron.. stayed at his house for a bit. Jonathan and I kinda had a little mishap. I was a little out of it because of Ron and what we always do when we're with Ron! haha. Anyway, this girl that I am not too fond of called Jonathan, I picked up, said hello, she asked for Jonathan, handed the phone to him, and the phone slid closed! whoops! haha oh well. Blah she is so annoying! She's freakin 17 years old, closer to my sister's age, tried getting on Jeremy, and now she thinks she's bff with Jonathan! It's ok... we didn't talk about the mishap any further because we didn't want to make a fight out of it. I ended up falling asleep on the couch until they woke me up. We were supposed to go downtown or something, but Jonathan decided he wasn't up for a crazy night since he had to drive back to SF for work. So we went to Joel's house instead since he was having a little get together. Again, I KOed on the futon until Lisa and Cindy and Therese and Co. showed up! I was still soooooo exhausted! Finally, we decided to call it a night. We dropped Ron off.. then Jonathan dropped me off. He walked me inside, said our good nights, and then I went to sleep. I woke up at 4am to Jonathan's call telling me he just arrived in SF! Poor baby... and now he is at work.
Alright...... I am soooo not looking forward to Tuesday... but thank goodness it's at the beginning of the week so my entire week isn't hell! I can't wait until the weekend again not only because it's bf/gf time but because of Halloween! I just wanna wear my costume. I think I'm gonna call in sick for work tomorrow so I can just rest today, prep my study guides then studay all day tomorrow for my 2 midterms. Yeah.. that sounds good to me.
So my weekend sorta began. I was supposed to go and watch the sneak preview of "Marie Antoinette" with Mariel because she had free tickets, butttt I HAD to go and pick up Leanna from her volleyball game.. but I couldn't pick her up early because she HAD to stay for the Varsity game. It was pretty gay but I thought, oh well, I should stay home tonight since I have midterms to prepare for. But what did I do instead? After I picked her up, we went to Costco for Nip/Tuck Season 3. They didn't have it.. so we got some chicken bakes for dinner. Then we went to Walmart... they didn't have it. So we tried Hollywood Video since it was just right there... they had it, but not to sell, only to rent!! By this time, I was already frustrated, but I thought, OK I went to 3 stores already, what's one more? So we went to Circuit City, and they had it... but it was freakin expensive! We went to Costco and Walmart because ONLINE it was cheaper!! Well we bought it anyway because we were dying to find out what happened (since I bought Season 1 and 2 the week before). Sooo.. instead of going out, I decided to stay home and watch Nip/Tuck.
Friday, I woke up bright and early for work and it was Mariel's first day! My favorite Kevin trained her.. then Mariel and I grabbed lunch at this Thai place. I keep forgetting the name. Back to work I went... then the gym... then home. I was planning to go out, butttt the thing got cancelled and no one else was going out.. so I figured I'd stay home again. I know I'm a bum! I was so tired though. Then my manager called me and told me that we had a 730am meeting!! So that's when I knew for sure I had to stay home. For the rest of the night I talked to Jonathan and then I watched Nip/Tuck until I fell asleep.
Saturday, I went to work... was late 5 minutes. blah! Got a little crap for it.. but oh well. Work went by sooo slowwww because it was really slow. Sometimes that's good though. Then, I realized, WHOOHOO it's Saturday! I get to see my boyfriend! I called Jonathan during my break and he was at my house - so he says! I told him I wouldn't be home for another hour so he just went back to his house. After work, I visited my love and spent some qt in the living room! Geez I missed him! Then we went back to my house, changed, and headed to the gym. We were there for an hour and a half... and I realize only now how much we worked out! I'm actually sore! Jonathan went to get a hair cut, and then we went back to my house, showered, got ready, and went back to his house for dinner with his family. We couldn't think of anything to do, so we visited Ron.. stayed at his house for a bit. Jonathan and I kinda had a little mishap. I was a little out of it because of Ron and what we always do when we're with Ron! haha. Anyway, this girl that I am not too fond of called Jonathan, I picked up, said hello, she asked for Jonathan, handed the phone to him, and the phone slid closed! whoops! haha oh well. Blah she is so annoying! She's freakin 17 years old, closer to my sister's age, tried getting on Jeremy, and now she thinks she's bff with Jonathan! It's ok... we didn't talk about the mishap any further because we didn't want to make a fight out of it. I ended up falling asleep on the couch until they woke me up. We were supposed to go downtown or something, but Jonathan decided he wasn't up for a crazy night since he had to drive back to SF for work. So we went to Joel's house instead since he was having a little get together. Again, I KOed on the futon until Lisa and Cindy and Therese and Co. showed up! I was still soooooo exhausted! Finally, we decided to call it a night. We dropped Ron off.. then Jonathan dropped me off. He walked me inside, said our good nights, and then I went to sleep. I woke up at 4am to Jonathan's call telling me he just arrived in SF! Poor baby... and now he is at work.
Alright...... I am soooo not looking forward to Tuesday... but thank goodness it's at the beginning of the week so my entire week isn't hell! I can't wait until the weekend again not only because it's bf/gf time but because of Halloween! I just wanna wear my costume. I think I'm gonna call in sick for work tomorrow so I can just rest today, prep my study guides then studay all day tomorrow for my 2 midterms. Yeah.. that sounds good to me.